Bagi Khat Raq'ah; hak bagi huruf 'Alif' ada tiga nuqtah panjangnya,
untuk huruf 'Ba' juga tiga ....
Kepala huruf 'Wau' dan 'Fa' dan 'Qhaf' adalah satu nuqtah.
Kamu mesti beri hak untuk setiap semua huruf"
Ustaz Ahmad Mustafa Sifu Khat
Aku hanya mengangguk-angguk mendengar, tidak begitu terpanah di dalam hati sehinggalah semalam bila hak aku cuba dinafikan. Aku rasa memang setiap dari kita mempunyai hak masing-masing yang perlu diakui oleh orang lain.
Kita tidak boleh melarang seseorang untuk menggunapakai haknya, walaupun definasi bagi setiap orang tentang maksud "hak" itu mungkin tidak akan sama.
Walaupun kamu tak akan dapat bersetuju dengan maksud 'hak' orang lain tadi, paling tidak kamu mestilah menghurmati apa yang dirasakannya.
Dan cubalah faham; menghurmati tidak bermaksud kamu perlu bersetuju ....
Datuk Seri Dr. Mohammad Khir Toyo mendakwa kekalahannya dalam pemilihan jawatan kerusi Pemuda Umno kelmarin berpunca daripada perbuatan sabotaj pembangkang dan ahli parti sendiri.
"Saya ingat memang ada isu-isu yang telah dibangkitkan pembangkang untuk burukkan nama saya kerana mereka bimbang kalau saya menang... mereka cukup bimbang," katanya.
Ditanya sama ada beliau akan mengambil apa-apa tindakan undang-undang berhubung perkara tersebut beliau berkata perkara tersebut tidak perlu.
"Tak perlu... Tuhan akan balas apa yang mereka buat," katanya.
Its always a havoc whenever I pay them a visit. I love them as much as they love me. Najmi the eldest is too old to come and hang around with me now, his voice is in the process of transforming and he refused to say not even one word to me. The youngest Tasnim is only a few months old and what makes her special is because we both share the same birth date !
The other four are now taking their eldest bother's place jumping and having a blast time with me. Guess who's the one who has not grown up after all ...!!!
Kamu bernasib baik sebab berminat dan mahu menggunakan Bahasa Inggeris. Saya juga tidak rasa salahnya jika Bahasa Inggeris digunakan untuk belajar Ilmu Hisab dan Sains, tapi cuba kamu ke Kuala Nerang Kedah dan tanya kan pada anak sekolah di situ:-
What is your name ? Ahmad
Where do you live ? Yes
How do you go to school ? No
Do you like to play football? Ahmad
What does your father do ? Ahmad
Saya kasihankan anak-anak kampung di situ. Kalau dulu hanya susah hati sebab lemah Bahasa Inggeris, sekarang juga menangis sebab lemah dalam Bahasa Inggeris, Ilmu Hisab dan Sains. Anak sekolah tidak akan mampu menguasai Bahasa Inggeris dengan baik jika kita tidak dapat menyediakan Guru-guru yang boleh Berbahasa Inggeris dengan baik.
Pergilah ke mana-mana sekolah di kampung dan carilah soalan Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris yang disediakan guru. Soalannya saja bercelaru dan berterabur aturan grammar. Jangan kata budak, aku pun tak paham soalan.
Sedihkan jika hanya anak-anak di bandar besar yang beruntung dengan penggunaan B Inggeris dalam pelajaran.
Anak ahli politik tak payah cakaplah, mereka di International School dan Boarding School di England atau Australia.
I ve been tagged by Hadie. Balas dendam katanya ....
1. Last beverage→ Yogurt Drink 2. Last phone call→Mommy 3. Last text message→ Hadie 4. Last song you listened to→ So7 (hahaha) 5. Last time you cried→ this afternoon
HAVE YOU EVER : 6. Dated someone twice → Nope 7. Been cheated on?--> Not that Im aware of 9. Lost someone special?→ Nope 10. Been depressed?→ Occasionally 11. Been drunk? Nope
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. White 13. Blue 14. Green
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU : 15. Made new friends → Yes 16. Fallen out of love →Nope 17. Laughed until you cried → Yes ... yesterday ! 18. Met someone who changed you→ Nope 19. Found out who your true friends were→Always know them 20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Yeap 21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ Nope 22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life→ Not many 23. How many kids do you want to have→ One 24. Do you have any pets → Yes, my cat Popo 25. Do you want to change your name→ I m OK with it 26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Nothing 27. What time did you wake up today → 8:15 28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Sleeping 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Vacation ! 30. Last time you saw your father→ Tonight.. just now 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Nothing 32. What are you listening to right now → Sounds of DVD my brother is watching "Black Books" (BBC) 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Nope. Che Mat , Yes 34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Turtle Slow 36. Whats your real name → Do I have to ?
37. Relationship Status → Single but not available 38. Zodiac sign→ Scorpio 39. Male or female→ Female 40. Elementary→ Tadika Bidayah 41. Middle School → Hj Mohd Sharif, Asma 42. High school → Sekolah Pondok 43. Hair color → Black 44. Long or short → Hoping for longer hair 45. Height → 166cm 46. Do you have a crush on someone?→ Hmmm.. not anymore 47. What do you like about yourself?→ Being Different (eceh.. ) 48. Piercings → Nope 49. Tattoos → I wish I could (huh) 50. Righty or lefty → Righty
FIRSTS : 51. First surgery → On my shoulder 52. First piercing → Ears .. but they're blocked now 53. First tattoo→ Henna .. yes 54. First best friend→ Noraini, Standard One SKRHjMohdShariff 55. First sport you joined →Running 56. First pet → Cat, Popo 57. First vacation remembered → Langkawi 1988 58. First concert → Celine Dione 59. First crush→ Ahhh.... I was 4 and he was 17 60. First alcohol drink—> Never
RIGHT NOW: 61. Eating → Trying my best with my diet 62. Drinking → Water 63. I'm about to → Sleep when Hadie SMS about this tag ! 64. Listening to → Still listening to "Black Books" series from outside 65. Waiting for → this tag to finish and hope to get it published before I sleep
YOUR FUTURE : 66. Want kids? → Hope so 67. Want to get married?→ Yupe 68. Careers in mind?→ On the right track now
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? 69. Lips or eyes → Eyes 70. Hugs or kisses → Hugs are okay 71. Shorter or taller → Taller 72. Older or Younger → Doesn't matter. 73. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous 74. Nice stomach or nice arms → Stomach... 6 pack is more than enough 75. Tattoos or piercings—> Neither 76. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive 77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship 78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Trouble maker!
HAVE YOU EVER : 79. Kissed a stranger → Nope 80. Drank hard liquor → Nope 81. Lost glasses/contacts → All the time 82. Sex on first date → I dont think so 83. Broken someone's heart → Really ? Dont think so 84. Had your own heart broken → Yupe 85. Been arrested?→ Nope 86. Turned someone down → Hmmm... not that I know 87. Cried when someone died → Yes 88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89. Yourself → Yes 90. Miracles → Yes 91. Love at first sight → Yes 92. Heaven → Yes 93. Santa Claus → Why spoil the fun ? 94. Tooth Fairy? → I think its gross 95. Angels → Yupe
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes 97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No 98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?→ Yupe 99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ My Passion ! 100. Posting this as 100 truth?→ Yupe. And what if I lied ???
I am now learning to write Arabic Calligraphy : Khat Raq'ah : I have finally, Alhamdulillah, met the Guru and am now learning the meticulous method ! And the Ustaz is having a hard time with me because I am clumsy and impatient whereas in khat you have to be very very calm and composed .....
ps: Ustaz even asked "How do you drive a car" to which I answered " errrr... very fast Ustaz"
1. I never liked cats, but now I have one at home which I love to death. I read books about cats and did research on them before I went to the wet market looking for one.
2. I wore white tudung like school girls and only tried to wear colored ones recently, because I had this idea that only white tudung goes with my face.
3. I dont like to fold newly bought newspapers
4. I flip open my magazines carefully and I cant stand people flipping the pages roughly
5. I jumped into the fountain pool in front of Masjid Zahir when I was8 because I love just any kind of pool as long as there s water in it and because I was impulsive
6. I also ran and jumped into a small river when I was 4 after my father, who was fishing, told me to stay in the car.
7. I never finished the skirt we had to make in Standard 6.
8. I played trumpet when I was 11 after I joined the school band, and I played "Widuri" song, solo, with my trumpet, that same year during a stage show at the end of the school term
9. I dont mind people making mistake, I just cant tolerate bad attitudes.
10. I am quite a sharp shooter when it comes to shooting netball or basketball. I always win when playing "the ladder" (basketball) even with the boys
11. I put off things until the last minute. That panic attack can boost my inspiration and creativity .. ecehh..
12. I am a very optimistic person;to the extend that a friend once told the others NOT to tell me if they had a crush on any boys because "Ann will be so positive and optimistic about your crush that you'd believe you WILL or CAN get the boy"
13. My mind works wonders that I cant control it most of the times. I may seem to be listening but my mind is actually somewhere else. You have to help bring me back to earth sometimes.
14. I sleep on one side of the bed to make room for my books magazines ibook phone pencils notebooks tudung ipod hangers....
15. I am a "Jack of Many Trades; Master of None" because I have difficulty focusing on the current interest for too long and I soon move on to another activity, but most of my pursuits will come and go round and round like a circle.
16. I read "The Firm" (John Grisham) 4 times
17. I love Calvin n Hobbes !And I still buy The Archies sometimes.
18. Not all perfumes suit me, I had to give away/sell some perfumes I bought just because they didnt go well with me
19. I am ok without air-conds. In fact sometimes I feel more comfortable with the air-cond off in my room at the office. I dont have one in my house.
20. When I was small I "swam" with my hands and feet flapping on my grandmother's carpet, imagining it to be the sea or river. And dont ask me why I decided to put my underwear on my head as “goggles” during the "swim".
21.I dont have issues taking busses to work or go places. And I dont mind walking too, even if its a long one, but not in heels of course.
22.I had a crazy internet love relationship with a Palembang guy many many years ago and I was even prepared to move "seberang".
23.I can listen to people's problems and help them solving the problems. I put different perspective to their problems and help them see things differently.
24. I used to easily believe whatever people told me. A friend who was staying in Sik told me once that her house had a swimming pool and I believed her. Her house was actually a very poor kampung house and I followed her mother went rubber tapping deep in the woods.
25.White is the new black for me
:-)
I now tag Sekut, AT80, Blue, Ijul, My Sister, IsBatuBintang, Ayu Hassan and of course Hadie.
We all have different values in life. What you think is important to you might not be so to other persons. And what some other persons consider to be the top on their priority list may not be so on yours.
Its a matter of how to compromise with all these different values and how much you want to lean and bend backwards or forward so as to accommodate with other people's values.
Even so, I still think that when it comes to certain issues and matters, we might discover that most people would be standing on the same ground of values, and it would be difficult for us to understand those who do not stand on that same ground.
I am still trying to understand this certain issue I m facing and I m so close to label a few people as "very uncouth".
I wish I dont have to be judgmental but like I said, on certain issues, I do expect us all to be on the same stage.
It reminds us of the many things in life takes us to the trailer journey of our existence reaches our soul; yearning for more so that we appreciate just every moments because most of them might never come again for the second time
I never had a good relationship with my mother. She was one of the 'garang' teachers in school. One you would never dare to come across. The one you will remember all through out your life because she pinched you in the stomach for forgetting to bring your PJ trousers.
So you can imagine, I lived with that teacher.
Her mere presence intimidated me.It was never easy to be left alone with her in a room. I would literally suffocate because it seemed that she breathed in all the air in the room and left me choking. I was always terrified of her. She had this power over me that I could still see her eyes watching me even when shes miles away. Slowly I began to create a space between her and me. And because she could never really reach me, I suspected that she was going through my personal things and diary so as to keep track of my ongoing activities. To this day, I still find it hard to write a diary, but I do find comfort in writing this blog because my mother still needs someone to switch on her Tetris computer game.
It took me a lot of courage to break away from her authoritarian power over me. She was always challenging and provoking just to hurt me. And how she played the game of guilt, like most mothers do, so that she could still hold the chain on my neck. But I always tried not to cry in her presence during any of her scoldings unless when the pain was so much to bear. I cried in the bathroom, on the way to school on my bicycle, in my sleep and I always felt that I was no good, never good enough and a sinner for always making her angry. Sometimes at night when I was crying myself to sleep I would pray and promise to Allah that I would be a good daughter to her.
The reason why women should get married at certain age is because Allah wants you to get out of your parents' house. But as my jodoh wasn't (and still isn't) around the corner, it was difficult on my mother too for having a single daughter jumping around the house even when I had started working at the time. She was feeling like I was still depending on her by still hanging around the house even though I did all I could to pay my share in the house like settling the bills. I think she took it as a sign of weakness and still treated me like I was 10. The pressure was so tense.
My mother could never imagine I would be doing anything against her wish and command. She would always say " If you dont like staying here, get out of my house". I didnt take the words as a challenge but I did feel like I had to get out of the house. But you see, this is Alor Star, not KL, its just not done for a daughter to go out and rent a house within the same town of her parents. But I did just that. All hells broke loose when she found out I wanted to move out. But I made my decision because I knew, had I stayed on, it would be more difficult for the two of us. I needed my space and even though she would never admit it, my mother too needed to see less of my face. It was not easy for me and to her it was the ultimate resistant on my part.
I prayed everyday to Allah for my relationship to be better with my mother. Ya, everyday, during my prayers and even when driving in my car. The chant of "Ya Allah, please make my relationship with my mother better and better. Please forgive me Ya Allah" was endless.
After the move, I still kept on going back to see her every now and then, to prove to her that I was not going away from her. I would always be her daughter no matter what and she would always be my mother in this world and in the hereafter. Allah IS Most Merciful because our relationship does get better in time. She started to see and take me as an adult, not pulling my strings so as to make me follow her. She confides in me and I would have never imagined that I could actually have a talk with her. We call each other over the phone every now and then. I also learn to look at her differently; to see the background where she comes from and the reasons for her behavior and from there on I try to understand her hopes, her fears, and her frustration. I see my mother now not only as a mother but first as a woman like many of us, with all our own different baggage.
You can never expect a person to change, but what you can do is to change your reaction towards them. You have to have a certain control over your own feelings not to let other people's actions affect you. Sometimes you have to make stand and not to let anyone, yes anyone push you around. I know now, even when I make a stand to my mother, its not that I'm being 'derhaka', the only thing is that I must find away on how to go about it so that my mother wont feel hurt with me; to explain to her the reasons for my stands or actions. Its much easier these days because she has accepted the fact that I am no longer her 10 year old daughter.
I had a hard way of putting my relationship with my mother to where it is now. You see, my mother never actually changes, she sometimes still tries to come up with her tricks and antics to have her own way, but she knows now that she is dealing with an adult daughter who wont want to be treated any other way. I have somehow earned her respect and my mother too has earned my love.
You Malaysians had fed the baby dragon ever since he was born more than 50 years ago. You kept on feeding him even when he started to deceive and betray you. He grew to become the Monster he is now, impossible, spoiled and wild. You knew he was selfish, thinking only of himself. He never cared about you. He took many of your possession into his pocket and claimed his You kept on trusting him even when you knew he lied to you many many times. Its sad because you wanted so much to believe what you wanted to believe.
Its too late to tame him now. Even when you took away his five toys, he went crazy and berserk. He's hurt. Couldn't believe that you don't really want him anymore. Being a beast that he is, he is now doing many of the unthinkable unethical and beastly actions. Like many of the Crooks in the Malay movies, he is now laughing " Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha"
Agak susah bagi sesuatu parti yang dibina dan berasaskan kepentingan individu, tanpa matlamat yang lebih jitu dan utuh, untuk benar-benar berjaya. Apalagi bila logo parti juga berlukisan dari sebelah mata yang lebam. Seawal penubuhan lagi aku sudah merasakan hayat hidup yang tidak begitu lama dan pastinya akan menghadapi masaalah.
Lebih bermasaalah lagi bila agenda peribadi dan dendam lama masih belum puas ditempiaskan. Semuanya semata-mata kerana mahu membuktikan 'beliau' mampu mengungguli kerusi pertama. Mahu menjelir lidah kepada "boss" lama bahawa "Aku tetap boleh jadi PM". Tergopoh gapah menepuk gendang menyangka ramai yang akan menyeberang. Modus Operandi yang dipakai menjatuhkan parti di Tanah Di Bawah Bayu satu masa dulu dan juga yang dipakai semasa tiada kesabaran mahu menjatuhkan No: 2 , rupanya tidak lagi boleh dipakai.
Aku juga merasakan antara punca ialah bila beberapa wakil yang dipilih untuk mewakili parti memperjuangkan hak rakyat sepertinya tidak begitu terperinci proses pemilihannya. Ada yang seperti tangkap muat sahaja. Dan ada yang dipilih juga masih belum teruji "track-record".
Kadang orang membuat pilihan bukan kerana kamu itu hebat atau bagus.
Ramai yang memilih alternatif yang disuakan kerana kebencianyang amat sangat dengan yang sedia ada.
Aduh, masih tidak mampukah membaca gerak lawan? Gerak teman dulu yang pernah bersama bawah satu selimut satu bantal. Bukankah ramai dari kamu orang mereka ? Sejarah sudah pernah menulis betapa kotor dan hinanya teknik yang boleh mereka gunakan. Mengapa masih juga tetap gagal mengesannya ?
Aku sudah kata dulu, bukankah lebih baik menfokuskan 5 negeri tersebut. Tidak perlu lagi untuk bergendang menari bersorak untuk jadi Perdana Menteri. Sabarlah dulu. Buktikan dulu di lima negeri.
Tidak perlu juga menunding jari mengata musuh jahat
kerana itu memang hakikat
tetapi bolehkah ini terjadi jika kubu sendiri KUAT ?
My grandmother asked me the same question "Ann baru balik kerja ka ni?" every 3 minutes and I would keep on giving the same answer everytime "Ya Tok".
Tok is about 84 years old now. She stays in bed all the time but still has the strenght to attend to her every other calling to the loo. She stays with Pak Ngah and family and I could never thank them enough for taking care of Tok.
There must be a reason why Allah takes some of our memories away when we grow old. How would we feel waking up at 80 to find that most of our friends have either passed away or bedridden. How would we feel knowing that our favourite grand daughter didn't turn up to visit us last week ? Its good that Tok forgets sometimes as there are things that might upset or hurt her had she finds out. Not that we should take advantage of that but acknowledging the way of life and its rule would at least make us feel less sorry for them.
