I'm fasting today. Two days in a row. My MO is kept in abeyance. After a few months with the diet scheme, I have to admit.. my appetite has slowed down. A major improvement for someone who can eat a horse everyday.

<>I expect to pass through life but once.
<>If therefore there be any kindness I canshow,
<>or any good thing I can do to any fellow being,
<>let me do it now,
<>and not defer or neglect it,
<>as I shall not pass this way again...
<>

Its been a pleasant month I must say.... September that is. I enjoyed the trip to KL, I got new clothes, new shoes, new handbag ... annnndddd a new hand phone ! I love the new phone; its Nokia 3530. Its not the latest gadget by Nokia, but I just love it !!! To top it all (the good things) I managed to pay the arrears of my personal loan. Yuppeeee !!! ALHAMDULIILLAH ! Praise to Allah.

Kak Nora spent the nite with me yesterday. We seem to get along very well; compared to the way how my relationship is (was!)with her sis. Nora is actually the elder sister of my good friend, Net. I mean not that shes turned bad or something .. but the relationship has. Me and her. Me n Net used to be such a good company but I think people change. We both change. I may be the person she no longer enjoys being frens with, and vice versa. May be she had gone such a rough time and the way she looks at things now has been affected or may be it is me who has changed.

I do have a few close frens, like Motien and Mulaikah. Theyre the persons who have been with me from as long as I can remember and we still connect. Motien has known me for almost 25 years and Mulaikah for about 20. They had seen the real me from the beginning and when I was going through some 'phases' in life .. they've seen it all and they're always there for me. I admit with guilt, that at some points in my life I had sort of hurt them.. but they always accept me as I am, accepting me with my good and bad. I always believe thats what good friendships are made of. Accepting the good and the bad of your mates. Noone is without faults. But when you can accept the faults of the other.. the relationship will go deeper.

And hey.. both are now married... Motien with 4 kids now and Mulai .. well.. expecting...! Motien's kids have always been in love with me.. hahahaha especially her eldest son, Najmi to the extent he once wanted to marry me !!! He was 3, I think at that time, playing horse ride with me when he whispered : " Mie (Najmi) wants to get married to Tie (Auntie) Ann !!! " that was so cute !!! and I said to Motien.. "hey look at just how long I have been single, now that even your son wants to get married to me.. ". And believe me, Najmi will turn out to be one handsome young man one day ! :)

What a wonderful morning to be able to wake up and not going to work... Its an off day actually. And yet... if its not a working day today; why am I at the office at this moment? I just remembered that I have to finish some job and its due the end of this month, and this 'job' is a real job.. involving lots of files and files and files.

The Diet (for You Sis)

I was at the gym last nite, trying my best to control my weight and my 'new' figure. I am now 65 kg. I havent been this weight for some years. The latest was 70kg. Not a good shape. But since I join the gym plus the diet regime, I'm improved ! I mean not only my body.. but my attitude as well. The diet was tough for someone like me who can eat and never stop eating. The diet took about two months to work. I started with two white egss and only one yolk, 1 glass of non-fat milk, one orange and two slice of whole wheat bread. Nothing in between the lunch except for fruits if starvation was nearing. For lunch it was only a small portion of rice and lots of veggies and fried chicken or fish. Nothing else after that except for fruits and fruits and lots of water and one glass of non-fat milk before I ended the day. It works ! I lost 5 kg. Even tho I dont stick to the diet for now, I still watch over the things I take and I'm still a regular at the gym. Swimming helps a lot too but please be careful.... do bring along some bananas with you when you go swimming. Take one before you leap into the pool and save some for the aftermath. Banana helps a lot in re-energizing you while taking care of your starvation.


Love is what you Give Not what you expect to receive

Is it true that woman needs to be assured everyday that she is loved ? Is it true that we need to hear the word " I love You' every moment of the day ? Well yes... I believe it is true. But what about men...? Do they, at the very least of once in a life time, have the feeling of insecurity as well ? And what do they do about it? The test ! Yes , I believe they test us.. the women they love. They make a test so subtle that you wont know that its a test. They will create stories and all just to see your reaction. To see how you feel and what would you say about it. What we show them, our reaction will determine the feeling we have for them

An evening at the talk : How To Control Your Sub Conscious Mind. Hmm.. quite interesting, you know, like the time when u're thinking about someone and suddenly that person called you; and u call it theraphy. Yeap the talk is about something like that; but its just an intro, the real course will be held in November and the cost is about RM300-00. I'd really like to trry.... but November.. its fasting month hmmmmm

Where do I start from here. Well for one thing I'm back in my home town. I've just finished my gym session and am now about to write about almost everything.

KL was great. Had a nice time there with my sis. Shes COOL ! The first day (17th) was not that fun. I had to spend almost 5 hours at KLCC before I could meet her after work. MY feet was aching... especially when I was wearing her sandals. Mine was not approved by her. Didnt suit the jeans and the shirt she said. Had Burger King for lunch and the rest of the time was spent roaming around and round and round and round the KLCC until my feet couldnt take it anymore that I had to buy that lovable loafers -Hush Puppies. I love it. Its so cool; a black one. Sis took me to her office gym... and straight to dinner after that. Not good actually for her as shes supposed to be on diet. Quite selfish of me.. but I had no intention not to eat and have fun. The food was good.

Oh.. did I tell you that my ear was aching all the time when I was in KL. It had affected my time there a bit but I was determined to enjoy myself nevertheless. The second day was a BLAST. We started out quite late and straight to lunch at Kenny Rogers. We went to the movie to see Eliana, eliana , an Indonesian movie. A good one, work of those people who did Ada Apa Dengan Cinta. Have to confess that I'm so fascinated with anything to do with Indonesian. I just have this thing for Indonesia. The language, the people...... uhmm.. I'll talk more on that some day.

And because of my aching ear I had to cancel my plan to try surfin at Sunway Lagoon. Have to try it someday. I must .. !

Oh ya.. I never thougt that I'm quite choosy actually or 'cerewet' as the they put it in Malay, especially when shopping. I was looking almost all over the place for my training shoe and a new handbag.. which I had explained earlier .. the things I NEED. Got myself... (finally !!) a nice handbag and a nice Reebok training shoe. And in between the times of finding the things I need I ended up getting things I WANT as well... like the new shirt.. the new socks.. uh... not good for my account... I have to thank my Sis for being such a sport !! Theres noone I'd rather be going shopping with except her ! Love you SiS !

Went to see Honey today at UUM ...

Since you are not a prophet, follow the way taught by prophets. Since you are not a king, be a loyal subject to the king. Since you are not a captain, do not take the helm of the ship. Since you do not possess every skill, have partners in your business. Be as pliant as dough in the hands of others, that you may rise well.

-Rumi, "Masnavi"

Having an extra few hundreds... I'd rather spend it on a new sneaker.. a new gym apparel.. a new swimming suit .. but *sigh* the thing is I need a new handbag !!! I wish I dont have to buy a new one (the handbag) so that I can spend the money on the things I WANT .. and not the things I need. But hey.. I do need the new training shoes.. and I do need a new sports bra... uhhhhhhh !!!

I'm going to KL tonite... la di da dud dibaa dubbb ...!! Its been a long time since the last time. No.. not for a holiday. Having a meeting up there with a Bank (no.. nothing to do with my finance..). Its WORK ! but its only going to take two hours... so I can have the rest of the day hanging around at the mall ... and ohh the food.. foods that are not available here in my small town.. actually not actually 'food'... the junks I mean.. Burger King.. Baskin Robin.. Nandos... TGIF... bla bla bla bla. I dont think itd affect my diet.. after all its only for two days.. (I've applied for another day off)

Always when ure faced with a difficult situation, be sure to ask urself " What do I actually want ?". Thats the best starting point where u can later direct ur way and stick to it. You make a choice, you decide and the decision, always comes in package. You take the good and the bad of your choice. Thats the way of the life in the first place. You cant take only the goods all the time.

I'm talking about my niece whos in deep sh*t when her parents found out that shes not wearing hijab in her campus. Its her choice of not wearing and shes paying *part* of the consequences. She must be feeling free and enjoying herself, but theres always the danger of her parents finding out. And they .... have found out. But hey.. shes almost 20 now. Hmmm.. thats why shes been saying (crying ) to me. "Let me be myself !!!". Ok Ok .. but dont ask me to talk to your abah or mama later.

It can be very very boring waiting your turn at the clinic. theres no such thing as appointment here, in my case. well actually its my grandmother's case .. shes the one in line waiting for her turn; Im the chauffer.

I'm tired and exhausted... must the tension (again) this morning. Yes its supposed to be my off day.. but you know when the-file-is-in-your-hand-and-u-have-to-attend-to-it urgently . boss was depressed with the file and I was the punching bag. Maybe I should be more aware of the things running under my nose. But hey.. a simple letter of confirming the conversation should do it. I dont have to follow their b*tt all around.

The golden rule of my firm : Please confirm everything in writing ! Believe me it works. and it will save your *ss later on. confirm confirm and confirm and your life will be better.

YOU ARE CLOSE to finding "the one!" We have carefully calculated
your responses according to our scientific formula and harmonized
the results to the Venutian lunar calendar. But don't get your hopes
up to hear those wedding bells soon, because your bridesmaid days
aren't over just yet. YOU WILL BE MARRIED BY:
Saturday, September 21, 2002


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Yeah yeah yeah.. its the Wedding Predictor. Got it from some website and pasted in my folder. I was browsing my files when I found the above and its now September 2003 and I dont know where my Husband is .... Ha ha ha ha *cynical laugh*

Had a good dinner last nite with Nora and cK. We really had a good time. Laughing with all our hearts. Its so good to be with a bunch of people who think alike and who can understand your frustration of the things around u.

We talked a lot especially on education system here. Its so bad when u mix education with politics ... the sad part is : at the expense of the students. I cant imagine how they can just transfer teachers (especially good ones - with brains) who are being critical and pointing out their thoughts. Just because u say something about the government doesnt mean ure for the opposition *sheesssshhhh*... its pathetic !

Start of School Holiday

Ahhh.. what a joy .. being a child ... nothing to worry about; except for the unfinished homework; except for the big bully waiting at the corridor; except for that tall and thin Headmistress whos still single and very serious and yeah when she walks she brings along the chill feeling and sweeps away all the noise....; except for the forthcoming exam especially the History subject with a text book of 300 hundred pages and where you have to remember everey single person who invented everythings from the needle to train, airplane .....

*grins* I'm glad i've gone through it all .............

errggghhhh ... !!! I hate it.. Missing files .. again.. !!!! It really gets on my nerves when these things happen.. I'm sure I've put them on the front desk.. and now they're gone ! Somebody must have taken it ...

Enough of the files. My diet is supposed to be on track again. I had one whole plate of Nasi Goreng yesterday.. and the day before that I had Keropok (a whole buch of it) *sigh* ya ya ya ... I'm not a freak... I just want to lead a healthy life... to be able to wear that Baju Kebaya again... and to be able to smile when I look at my abs... and not to hold out my tounge panting when I climb up the stairs.... and to eye on that two piece bikini .... finally !

Dogs

Being a Muslim dog a taboo subject. Its considred as one group with PIGS, which is Haram/forbidden in Islam.

On the contrary, I like dogs, in general as compared to cats. I just hate cats. Cats are arrogant and snobbish. But dogs are loyal. They may not be as smart as cats, but then cats are so manupulative. Anyway, I love Hush Puppies best.