I'm Roped But Nevertheless Grateful

I am about to make another commitment, big time commitment, at least bigger than any other I have ever made. It never really crossed my mind whether I am a commitment-phobic or not, but as time goes by, I am beginning to realize that I may be one.

Commitment... hmmm... I don't like to be committed because I believe I'm quite a free-spirit kind of person. Not really wanting to be tied to plans and rituals. I want to be free to be able to do whatever I want to do and whenever I want to, well, to certain extent of course. I guess thats why I am still single to this day, because HE knows I'm not quite ready yet.

But this new commitment I'm about to make really tie me up ! big time !. Even though I'm not sure when will I ever be able to go and work in Jakarta, backpack all around Europe for three months, laze around Cebu for a few weeks, learn how to surf in Bondi ..... but knowing the fact that I am not attached and free is sufficient to make me smile and continue dreaming.

But on the other hand, I should be grateful, Alhamdulillah, because HE is giving me what I asked for. The ones I get are those I really asked from HIM, and yeahhh.. I never really asked to work in Jakarta ! I guess I should start praying for the backpack through Europe ! Who knows , this one might go to my Wish List in HIS book.


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"If ye are grateful, I will add more (favours) unto you;
but if ye show ingratitude, truly My punishment is terrible indeed."

Surah Ibrahim : 7