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masuk.rumah.orang.

halau.tuan.rumah.keluar.


lawak.apakah.itu.?

Happy BAHDay To Me

Its my birthday and I am stranded in this small town I love.

It started raining on Sunday 31st October and only stopped on the morning of 2nd November.

All roads to Alor Star are closed .

I have not gone to work for two days.

I went round taking photos and people think I m from press.


and now I m feeling dizzy and tired ....


I m not that young after all.

Happy BahDay To Me !

:-)

*Bah is Flood in Kedah

I m Officially Off The Facebook Hook

Go find my name .. and see that I m gone .. *poof* .. vanish from that crazy book !

I am happy .. but am now starting to get invites from my Yahoo friends to join again .. haha

some of my friends are not happy I m not around the Book anymore, and its funny when they text me conveying their grief as if I had gone from their "life"

well .. I m still around and kicking ... I have more time for more important things in my life .... like errr .... Flickering* ... hahaha



:-)


*spending time at Flickr

D90

does not necessarily mean your Nikon

I ve seen it on a Triumph tag too


:-D

Letters From The Past

My parents are in my house today. Mak is not feeling very well, and Abah had just had a minor operation last week and is doing fine Alhamdulillah. Its nice when they are around, a reminder that the people who love me and whom I love are still around.

Mak brought with her a few letters from the past .... aerogrames to be exact sent by Mak and the others to Tok and Wan (my grandparents) who were in Mekah performing Hajj. These letters were dated in December 1973, when I was only two years old and when there were just the two of us in my parents' life, my little brother and I.

I read the letters out loud to Mak who was lying next to me and we both laughed our hearts out (ok I was louder) at the content of those letters.

If only I were to put all there is in the letters, it would be LOVE. Those hand writings by Mak and some portions by Abah, Pak Lang. Pak Cik and Chaq reflects the surrounding of what family was all about at that time. They were very close; not only among the close family, but also with some distant relatives and friends. They took time to take care and spend time together , visiting each other like one huge family. Most of those people mentioned in the letters had passed away and I pray that their souls are blessed and that they are in a good place now.

I m writing again here some parts from those aerograms which I find endearing.


I love this part where everybody made their request to Tok to buy things for them.

"Achik pesan emak bawa balik batu kecil2, satu set untuk rantai tangan, loket, 1 biji dan subang. Mak Pora Mat Said pulak hendak batu hitam sebiji. Mak Padang Sera batu2 yang berwarna warni yang Che Zah (my mom) habaq dulu. Che Zah bini Che Ya (referring herself) pula mau anak unta seekor !"

"Kata Kak Yah Rejab, kalau ada, beli paun 20 cents satu. Nafizah kata paun ada tulis nama Allah warna biru merah ada banyak orang pakai sini. Cantik juga. Bolihlah emak beli untok Chik (my aunt) and Ann"

"... dan kalau ada duit tu, belilah periok masak cake yang macam rumah Ma' Lang Derga tu. Boleh jual di sini !"

and this portion by my uncle Pakcik who must be around his teens at that time

"Mak oooi bawa balik baju arab banyak helai, kasut dua pasang, kasut alladin, kain selimut selai, rantai satu, cincin satu, cari yang groovy"

Pak Lang another uncle of mine wrote a letter in a Malay language which you can only find in those days before "tak" was not written as "x". You know the type of letter which started with " Menemui ayah dan bonda yang dikasehi"

"Sejak peninggalan ayahnda dan bonda berdua keadaan di rumah amatlah sunyi dan sepi. Tetapi mujurlah anaknda telah bekerja sementara di kedai kain Pekan Melayu (P.Syed Muhammad punya). Bercampul gaul dengan mamaklah di sini. Anaknda bercakap Melayu pun bergulung lidah-lidah sekarang ni

Dengak orang kata jam tangan di sana murah. Kalau bonda atau ayahnda ada duit yang lebih-lebih tu belilah dekat anaknda satu. Kalau ada kurta (jubah) yang elok-elok belilah satu untuk anakanda"

this by Chaq (my mother's cousin)

"Tok (my mother's grandmother) yang duduk di Rest House kami sehat. Hari2 ada Inspektor datang check, makan tak makan. Kelmarin dulu Inspektor Mak Milah ... ha ha

kalau ada duit banyak lebih tu, tolong beli kipas yang mem2 suka bawa pakai pi party ...."

and this part Mak wrote about me:

"Dua tiga hari lepas, Mak Basah Pak Napiah datang bawa seorang budak nak mengasuh Syafiq dan Ann. Mereka datang pagi, dok petang dia kata "Kak chek nak balik !" Rupa-rupanya kawan tak tahan ligan Ann di jalan. Nak dukung Syafiq lama pun tak larat"

"Ann sekarang maca dulu juga. Tak bolih lepa, dia lari ke jalan, lagi ligan lagi lari. Bila dengar bunyi kapal terbang di kata kapal terbang Tok dan Wan. Sekarang pandai sangat dia, kencing sambil berjalan... dok senyap2 dan basuh kain baju dalam bilik ayer Adik teriak, dia mai gosok kepala adik "Awat adik teriak?" "Awat ni" dan lain2 lagi. Tak larat nak layan dia"

hahahahaha. Whats with me that I kept running to the street. All my uncles told me the same thing. I would always be running to the street !! ... and they were just exhausted running after me.

"Ann tak berapa panggil Wan atau Tok dia lagi. Dulu dua tiga malam dia buat perangai , tengah malam dia jaga, dia teriak nak tidor di bawah dan lain-lain lagi. Bukan main terok Abah dia - sampai empat pagi. Kata orang ambil kain emak atau bapa selimut, haram tak mau"

"Ann tak berhenti sebut nama Tok dan Wan dia. Pluck TV (ya thats how my mother spelled it (plug) ) tu dia selalu pi buat hello, hello Tok , hello Wan .."

Oh how I miss my grandfather (Wan) who had passed away a few years back. Tok is still around of which I m making a mental note to visit her tomorrow, insya Allah.

I feel so touched reading the above part. I could really feel the love. I was so loved even though I was not really an easy child. The love of my parents for me was abundant and I know it didnt stop there.

"Ya Allah Rahmatilah mereka seperti mana mereka mejaga ku sewaktu aku kecil"


one more part from the letters:

"Chu Yam pesan suroh mak berdoa bagi Kak Chah dipinang cepat"

hahahahaha

and yes those were the days when there was no Facebook and people say hi to people, not to computer screen ....

:-)

Al Fatihah to those who had passed away.

I Finally Paid My Water Bill

... after coming home last nite with no water at the kitchen sink.

went out to see that they had cut the pipe line ....

ohh .. dont pity me ... serve me right for not paying the bills on time .....

and yeah I finally went to pay the bill for the first time in THREE years I stay in that house .....

hahahahaha .... gilakan? tiga tahun tak bayar bill ... the bill cost me RM109.10. Yeap I dont bathe that much .. my monthly bill is only around RM3.

Mr Lim Guan Eng should be happy with me !!!


:-)


On a lighter note : I have sent application to FB to delete my account which would only be confirmed in two weeks time .... so far so good... I m ok .... I know I can do this !!!

Wish me luck everybody !

.. still rambling about FB

.. and its quite shocking sometimes seeing the language used by the FB users in their status. Its more shocking when they come from people we know ... like cousins or close relatives. You get to know them deeper than you already know in the real world.

they curse they yell they shout like you can see all there is in their hearts.

Perhaps thats what virtual world is all about, you can do and be just about anything you want. And even if you type out all those hurtful words, you dont get to see their eyes and see for yourself how affected they are by what you ve just typed ...

the world apparently is getting closer and crazier ...


and I m just an old lady reminiscing those wonderful days where "polite" was not a strange word.


:-P

edit: and i just found out, after I put up the FB entries, that Haza of Runningmom had just deactivated her FB account too .... wow Haza .. if youre reading this ... Congratulations ! you did the right thing .. and I m going to do the same thing anytime from now.

:-)

I Am Seriously Thinking ....

...of deleting my FB account.

Its not the application. Its me. I have become addictive to it. I am very prone to addiction to just about anything I fancy in my life at the expense of everything else. I hate that I would want to check the FB even on my phone. I had since deleted the application in my phone but it's not helping because I can still check it thru the mobile website.

But if I close down the account, I would miss seeing my friends, saying hello, how do you do. Or even my family and close relatives .. sharing jokes and keeping each other updated about things happening in our lives.

How do I control this addiction .... ?

Think I should join the "FB Anonymous" anytime soon ...

Tot For Tot

Salah satu sebabnya mengapa agak payah untuk Muslim Malaysia sekarang bergerak maju ke hadapan sebagai Muslim yang progressif adalah kerana tahap pemahaman Islam yang masih mentah. Bukan untuk memandang rendah tetapi mahu menunjuk pada satu hakikat yang jika kita semua dapat menerimanya dan mengambilnya sebagai iktibar, InsyaAllah Muslim Malaysia tidak lagi akan menjadi lapuk.

Saya hanya akan menumpukan pada satu point di mana adalah sesuatu yang amat menyedihkan kerana permasalahan hukum fardu yang wajib diketahui sedari kecil masih lagi dibahaskan pada umur 40 hingga 50 tahun. Masih lagi imam di masjid menyampaikan kulliah berkaitan cara mengambil air sembahyang yang betul, masih lagi timbul persoalan apakah yang akan terjadi jika lupa sujud sahwi selepas lupa membaca doa qunut, masih memperbetulkan bacaan Fatihah yang masih tetap salah khalqalahnya.

Tanpa menafikan pentingnya hukum-hukum dasar diingat dan diberi perhatian, tetapi tidaklah patut ianya menjadi tajuk atau topik utama lagi. Pada umur 20an ke atas lagi perkara yang patut dan perlu dibincangkan bukan lagi soal hukum qunut, tapi persoalan politik dan ekonomi Islam.

Agak bercelaru bagi sesetengah makcik dan pakcik di kampung yanng tidak dapat memahami konsep politik atau ekonomi Islam yang mahu dibawa oleh orang muda bila di surau kampung mereka masih lagi belajar menghafal sifat 20.

Wallahu a'lam

I Miss This Blog .. Really

Oh how i missed coming to this blog. Missed jotting down my thoughts and stories. I neglected this blog eversince CraftyAn*que came along and I was sewing like crazy ... yeap literally crazy because me being me ... I hate to follow rules .. Base on some basic sewing techniques I learned from a class or two and with some crazy ideas I had sewn quite a few crazy things. Oh well ... I m not that good ... even though I do have some imaginations.


Popo has been a wonderful cat. Hes turned out to be like me .. or maybe the other way round, we're both fat .. as to F. A. T. Its no fun being fat, and no, I have nothing against fat people ... its just there s a guilt in me .. questioning myself "What have you done to me lady !?".. thats the voice I heard quite a few times from my own body.

hes not lazy... he reads a lot

Ijul my good friend was at my place during the fasting month. Finally, after all the plans, it was she who turned up at my door instead of me walking down her street in Jakarta. She brought along her aunt and they both stayed for about a week. We went for tarawih prayer at the mosque near my house and as promised, I drove them to Hatyaai too, together with Sri.




I will insyaAllah one day soon breath in the Jakarta air too ... hopefully by the time my sister finally secure a job there !!! Yeap, insyaAllah shes moving there and guess whos the happier one !


Just for some updates on what has been happening and oh I cant wait to write down my thoughts again .... its loading in my brain and at the height of bursting !! .. haha as if ...

Oh how I miss this blog ....

and oh on another note .. Im officially a "makcik" now ... huhuhu... no no I m not talking about my sister or brothers having kids ... I m physically really a "makcik"....

:-(

- Dumping Babies -

I am sorry but I am of the opinion that we are actually part of the reason to the increasing rate of abandoned babies. While not holding the heartless culprits any less of blame, I feel that there should be other ways for us to handle the problems rather than pointing all fingers at them and judging them.

I'm saying this because I think we should first look at the real reason behind their cruel actions . Why did they do it? Dont tell me they re doing it because of the adultery sins they committed. I am telling you they did it not because of the sex sins. They did not think of any sins when they re jumping on each other and it only took a matter of one step further of extending the already committed sins, to dump the "fruit of their labour".

You know why they dumped them ?

THEY DUMPED THE BABIES BECAUSE THE KNEW IF THE SOCIETY FINDS OUT ..... THEY WOULD BE DOOMED !

Let us be honest here. Whats the first thing you d think when you know of someone's daughter or someone's sister or even a friend is pregnant out of wedlock ?

You cant help being judgmental, right ?

For some, these judgmental thoughts would only be kept at the back of their mind but most, most would never hesitate to throw at the girl all the worst names they could think of and cursing not only the girl but the whole of her family and the family line. The society would never forgive and neither would they forget the mistake for the rest of the mother's or the baby's life !

But if we re talking about killing souls, and if we want to punish those who put their babies in the toilet we should also punish those who went for abortion. Arent they both the same ......... ? Abortion is also a "killing method" and of course we re not talking about abortion due to health issues here.

Those with moneys wouldnt hesitate to go to the clinic for abortion: the rich would go outside the country and the not so rich would take the local clinics, those with lesser moneys would go to "bomoh" and "dukun" and those with no money and no brains would go to the toilet. And some with no money and a bit of brain would eat lots of pineapples.

And yes they are all the same. They all kill a soul .

I wish they would come out with the statistic as to the background of all those dumpers and I am sure and I can guarantee that their background would be almost the same ...

Their reason too would all come down to the same one: they just couldnt face the family and the society.

I know many NGOs have set up shelters and there are also many 'rumah kebajikan' around to cater these cases , but all these would not help the situation if the society still have the judgmental, unforgiving, cursing attitudes.

Just because I am suggesting that we should help the out of wedlock pregnant girls does not mean that I am condoning adultery ... I am merely suggesting that we should help them instead of judging and punishing them.

Let the punishment be in the hands of Allah and the government whos supposed to implement hudud ...... NOT US.

You Are Not Weak ....

1. If you apologize when you make a mistake

2. If you need people in your life

3. If you know how to say Thank You

4. If you dont have the last say

5. If you do not know certain things

6. If you are not always at the top

7. If you are young

8. If you are old

9. If you dont get angry

10. If you are silent



:-)


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Little Things Become Unimportant When You Think Of Bigger Things

How do you see things in your life ...?

How big and how small is your world actually ?

Are you seeing using the magnifying glass .. or are you looking at a grand map of plan?


What you see and what you dont see depends on your position. The higher your position is the more things you are able to see.

But if you are sitting from a very low position , you can only see things within that range of small and narrow sight only, and the sad part is that when people of higher position tell you the things they see, most of the times you dont even know what on earth are they talking about.

:-|

Change Is Good - So They Say

This week is the toughest week for me and the firm. A few major changes are taking place and some are unexpected and shocking. Its like one after another and we could only wait and see if there are a few more coming.

Changes are inevitable, many and I suppose most of us do not really like changes because we usually feel safe with the same environment and the same routine. We do not want and perhaps the actual word is "afraid" to be out of our comfort zone. Because when there are changes we have to make adjustment to accommodate the changes. There are things that we might have to let go and there are new things that we might have to hold on to now.

And of course there are times when we ourselves are the instrument to the changes which can of course make other people hate not only the changes but us too.

Perhaps Allah is adjusting a grand plan for the firm and me and perhaps the changes can also be as a turning point for something better ...

But for now I can only wait and see and just pray that things will be alright and ok for everybody.

Rabbishrahli Sadri Wayassir Li Amri .......


:-|

Mistake

To certain extend in my line of profession - we are not supposed to make a mistake.

People make mistakes ... all the time. But my stand is that we are only given a leeway for at least ONE mistake and that we should learn from the mistake and move on without repeating the same mistake. In order to progress and in order to have zero defect you have to have made some mistakes along the way because with any mistakes discovered, you can now know how to manage and control better.

We should never be stressed out and expect everything to be perfect because to err is human , its inevitable, even in my line of work. But the most important thing is how do we manage the mistake made. The attitude must be in place, feeling regret and sorry are as important as finding ways to overcome the mistake. You cant run away from your mistake. You have to face it and amend it as soon as possible and the best that you can.

My boss does not seem to agree but then of course you cant expect everybody to agree with you. Suffice if we could agree to disagree. But I think he made a mistake there to be so stressed out.

:-P

I Have A New Blog

Well ... since I am now into all this crafty things, I have decided I should create another blog for that particular purpose. This blog should not be contaminated with all those crazy crafty stories. The name of this blog itself does not not condone to anything crafty anyway .. lets leave this blog to only my thoughts and thoughts and thoughts .. not to what my hands can do ... (cewahhh)

http://craftyanique.blogspot.com

.. and I d prefer Crafty Anique not to be linked to this blog. It's supposed to be for a different community but I dont mind those who read this blog, hop to Crafty Anique.

If I m not here .. you know now where to find me ....

:-)

EGO

when everything else in one's life starts to fall apart ... the only thing he holds dearly to is the EGO

you don't need to hang on to your ego when you re at ease with yourself and what you have achieved ... you wont drag your ego to everywhere you go because you know you wont need it to make people notice you

the 'bigger' you are .. the smaller your ego will be

but when your ego is getting much bigger than yourself ...

there must be something missing in you !

hmmm


:-|

Do You Always Mean What You Say

.. because I do find sometimes that people say things because they feel that's what supposed to be said .. like a dialogue in a TV drama .. or a script ... where at this particular scene one should be saying this and this ... when deep down you know whatever shes saying doesnt really come from her heart

:-\

A Closure

Shes been looking for him all these years. They were together for a few years when suddenly he just left without saying anything. Broken hearted, she had no choice but to move on with her life. She went on to meet other people but theres still someone and something that she s missing. She s not sure whether she still loved him or not but he had never left her mind and her thoughts.

Every now and then she she'd google his name with a hope that she might stumble into something about him. She was looking for him wanting to find him to seek something but she did not know what it was .. until one day when the search of his name in FB had prompted her to send him a message. She sees that hes now married to a beautiful woman and they even have a sweet little daughter. She could feel that she was actually .... happy for him.

After all the customary hellos and how-have-you-beens between them , he one day told her how sorry he was that he left her. He didnt mean to hurt her but it was something he had to do and he had no gut to tell her at that time.

She was suddenly reminded of the old pain, no shes not hurt anymore, she was already with someone else and she is happy now. She told him she forgave him and that she was happy for him. He wished her well and he too was glad that shes happy.

And now she knows ... what was it that she s been looking for from him all these years .

She just wanted to find out why he left her

She wanted him to say hes sorry

She wanted him to acknowledge the mistake he had done

He didnt explain everything to her but it was suffice that he did apologize to her

There was no more messages between them ever since

She understands now that all that she needed and wanted all these while was a "proper closure".


Because when you say Hello to someone you meet, it would be proper to say Goodbye when you want to leave.

:-)

Something That I Did Last Night

Front

Back

Can you feel that I need more felt ?

:-p

The Adventure Of Ann And Her Bag Making Class

Sri is my old old friend from the primary school days (see .. we re really old now, but seriously Sri looks younger than her age). She and her sis from Pondok Craft had organized a one day class in Jitra on how to make a bag. I was thrilled and excited of course since my current interest is now all about sewing ! Its about time my skill in sewing buttons be upgraded and expanded.

I was also feeling nervous because until that particular day, it had been a very very very very long time since I last laid my hand on a sewing machine (literally, seriously). In other words I had never used a sewing machine.

I had been to Pondok Craft in Seberang Jaya on its opening day and I must say I was very impressed with the shop .... the fabrics are awesome with a few rows of beautiful American Cotton fabrics to choose from ...! They're really careful with the quality of the fabrics they sell and I also love the choice of patterns and the colors they have.

That' s me and Sri and Aniza at the opening day

Ok , back to the story.

I was the first to be in the class and there were 5 Bernina sewing machines on the two tables . So you see, Bernina, for those who only know Singer brand as sewing machine, is one of the branded sewing machines in the market. When you use a Bernina, especially the high end ones, it means you have arrived ! And those crazy quilters .. they would at least use the Bernina Aurora which can cost about RM7,000-00. The top notch of the brand can be traded with a new Kancil car. They also have the low range set which is Bernette, but Bernette, according to those hard cores, is not the real Bernina, as the story goes they are made in Thailand and not Switzerland.

So it's confirmed that I am crazy to dream using a Bernina Aurora or Activa (the mid range version) when the one I can afford is only a Bernette and another brand Janome. This entry I tell you, can be longer if i want to go on mumbling about Janome and all the other machines and I cant afford that or else you readers would be jumping to someone else's blog.

There were about 6 of us in the class including two male participants who came with their wife and I'm telling you .. those men, they really know how to sew !!! Not sure if I should post their photos here ... never mind .. just take my words for it. They are good.

This is Sri my good friend who helped me a lot and who must have sworn she should have charged me more than the others

Oh I do want to tell everything in details but it ll be so long winded and I think I ll just sum up everything in point forms:-

. I had caused problems with the machine (they let me use the Bernette). I cant blame the machines because everybody else was doing fine with theirs. Or maybe because its Bernette, but then another Bernette was fine too ... hmmmm .. such a mystery !

. I also cost them more threads than the others because I kept on making mistakes, sewing on one side when I should have sewed the other side ...

. The machine wont listen to me. ! When I wanted to go straight it would sway the other way. Another mystery to me and the teachers too.

. Everybody was already packing their bags to go home and mine was still not finished.

. The teacher had to finish it for me ... because they cant afford to wait for me .. it ll be dark if they let me do it

The Guru Besar who was fated to put up with me

And finally .... after all the trouble and sweat ( to the teachers as well) , ladies ...... heresssss 's (drum role) my bag ! :-

I love love love the bag ... it doesnt matter that I cheated when making it .. its still my bag !!! Yeahh !


All the credits must go to Sri and her Sister for being so patient with me. I would have been sent out the class had it been other teachers !


I used the bag right away the next day and you know what ...

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the handle came off ....


tsk .... me and my so called hand-made bag ! A typical me and my hand things ... just like everything I lay my hands on


But hey all that does not put me off ...... I am more than ready for another adventure with the PondokCraft team for their next class ....

psss ..... I have a feeling they might want me to find and bring my own machine the next time .

Hmmmm

:-)

Looking For A Partner ...

a traveling partner to hop and jump at this beautiful island in South Thailand.

the island is not as touristy as Phuket or Phi Phi or even Samui ... u ll love it ...

a place to just relax .... reading a book under the tree ... diving into the sea for a good snorkeling ... good seafood around .... ... no clubbing or wild party .... ahhh .... pure bliss

its nearer to my place than Terengganu .. just not more than 3 hours drive ....

alahaiii ......

sampai kena buat iklan .....



or else i ll just go alone .... wahhhhh best best best !

Hand Me Down Shoe Rack

I am the eldest in the family ... or you can also say the oldest among my siblings. When you are the first born, ever since you were a baby, you get to have all the nice new things just for you .. the best of everything because your parents were young , they consider you to be the extension of themselves.

... and when your brothers and sister came along ... some of your things are handed over to them ... your toys .. your shirts and skirts ... (if your brothers dont mind)

but now ... since we are adults ... it has turned the other way round .... my younger sister, the one who likes shopping, now is handing me down some of her things ..... hmmm

I dont mind it at all .. especially when those things are still in good shape ...

and so last week when she bought herself a new shoe rack ... I gladly took over her old one.

I d say this is a rather pathetic entry ... to be talking about shoe rack .. but actually, the main reason is I just want to share how much I love the decorations I assembled on the top shelf ....



:-)



P/s: You d notice too that I had bought myself a new basketball ..... ! (cantik kan..?)


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Kalau Ada Jarum Yang Patah

:-D

Mari Bersiap Sedia

.... dengan kegilaan musim baru ....



tungguuuuu



akan datang


:-P

What;s Your Priority ?

We all have different priorities in life. With an exception to the rich, most of us have to decide what is more important than the other in terms of spending.

Those who are into photography would not think twice to spend RM15K on a good camera, but they would of course think its ridiculous for the wife to have a RM4K LV bag. And the wife who's eyeing the RM7K sewing machine would climb off the wall to hear her daughter's request for a RM1K iPod ....

So you see, right now, my priority is not the TV ... seriously ... I have always mentioned that the idiot box will never be at the top list of my priorities. Plus, I have not paid my ASTRO account for more than a year.

My mother brings her OWN ASTRO card whenever she comes to my house.

I just dont watch TV that much ... except for some DVDs ..

I know LCDs are much cheaper and more affordable now, but my eyes are now fixed on something else which I think is worth more than a 32" LCD.


hmmm ....

Even if one day I find myself looking for one LCD or start paying my ASTRO bill, that would be because of my mother .... because to make her happy is one of my top priorities .

:-D

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Rumah Aku Ada Tukun

Semua orang dah tak tahan dengannya

Bila mereka datang ke rumah aku, mereka agak tertekan

Semua meminta aku menggantikannya

Masing-masing berharap aku memikirkannya dengan sebaik mungkin

Mak juga agak keberatan datang ke rumah aku lagi

Sepupu sepapat juga begitu

Mereka kata agak penat kalau ramai yang datang

Macam mana nak tengok Juara Lagu dengan best kalau TV sebesar ini :-

Mak cakap ianya layak dilempar ke laut

buat tukun

Bukan Semua Kagum Kalau Kamu Ada Gelaran

Memang betul sesetengah manusia akan selalu mengejar pangkat demi untuk merasa diri hebat. Mereka perlukan gelaran untuk mengangkat diri dan membuat diri merasa lebih daripada orang lain, walaupun sesetengah gelaran yang diperolehi tidak sedikit pun mengubah apa-apa dari "dalam" dirinya.

Ketahuilah tidak semua akan terpesona dengan gelaran yang kamu ada .... tidak semua menjunjung nilai yang kamu agungkan.

Gelaran yg kamu ada tidak sekali-kali membuatkan kamu lebih bijak pun ....


:-D

Are You Really Better ..?

I m wondering is it a good thing to look down at the person who has hurt you and make you angry; to feel sorry for him/her ... and to think that his/her life is such a sad world (like what I mentioned in my previous entry) ...

to look at him/her as someone beneath you ...

and by doing that you d feel more superior than that person ...

to feel like you re better than him/her ... ??

Is it really ok to have that feeling ?

I guess being angry and hurt by a person's actions towards you does give you the right to have that superiority feeling ... but only for that particular moment. This can help you feel better, calm you down a bit and not do something stupid and later regret it . But that "right" should not really last for long because if you keep holding on to that superiority feeling that you re always better than everybody else, all the time, you will then never be able to be humble ... you will never learn to be a better person ...

because you know what .... sometimes ... yes .. sometimes ... along those hurtful words that have wounded us ... there are some truths

and The Truth Always Hurts

Ouch ..

.

The "Roslan" Song

I was listening to an old Malay song by Search "Isabella" and I wondered would there ever be songs about guys ... you know like an all female group who would come up with song titles like:-

"Roslan"

"Aziz"

"Zukifli"

or even

"Zakaria"


I wonder what the lyrics would be like .....

"Roslan kau jejaka baik ...
kerjamu buat ibuku jatuh hati ..
tak ada yang akan menolakmu...
Oh Roslan ... Roslan.... Rossslaaannnnn"

Hmmm ....

"Zakaria" would be more difficult I guess .....



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Some Things Are Just Not Worth It

Sometimes when a person hurts provokes or makes you angry .... you feel like telling him/her off .... your emotions are boiling and you want to hurt them back ... real bad. You want them to feel what you re feeling

but you know what .... some people do not need your retaliation to hurt them

when you look at them you will know that their life itself is a sad life .... there are many other things that have made them unhappy ... even without your hurtful words ... their life is already in a sorry state

take a deep breath ... walk off ... and think how you pity them ....


:-|

Dialog Yang Tak Layak

He was telling her the history of the King of Th*iland, with full excitement

"at one point the previous king had no heir"


dumbfounded, she thought


"hmm ... hmm raja thai tak ada "angin" .... what is the connection between the king and the wind ? ... he must have meant "angin" as to "aura"...."


so she asked him " why the angin...?"


baffled at her stupidity


" raja tu tak rajin kentut !!!"


:-D

Pinocchio Hindustan

"I tak penah cakap bohong tau"

"I selalu cakap yang benar belaka"

"I tak boleh cakap bohong, macam Pinocchio tu"

"ha ah ... patut la hidung you tinggi mcm Hindustan kan ?"


:-D

Glow In The Dark Woahhh

Malam ni ada orang nak datang rumah aku

nak datang dengan gf nak tengok2 barang aku

sama ada aku nak jual ka tak ...

siap tanya brand apa barang aku tu

cewahhhhh ... lagi mau tanya

dia tak tau

"Spalding Glow In The Dark" pun aku ada woooooaaa

hmmm ... nampaknya basketball aku hanya akan tinggal 4 biji saja lagi


*sigh*

Jitra dan Bikini

I have re activated my membership at the club

for RM40 a month ... it s really worth the money

the gym is small ... I can still use the treadmill .. but not the bikes ...

a few other equipments should be enough to re instill my bicep muscles (uhuks)

and oh the pool .... i just love the pool

not too big and not too small

last few nights I was there ... for the swim

i was alone .... i had the pool all to myself

i was really alone .. even the staffs were hardly to be seen

i swam with caution ... all the ghosts from the Shutter, Phobia 1 & 2, My Ex and the Dorm .. ehh not the Dorm (the ghost boy is too cute to be a ghost) kept appearing in my head

suddenly it hit me ..... I knew why the pool was empty





"Rasanya orang Jitra tak reti pakai bikini"

:-))

Run Ann Run

i cant wait for my next get away trip .....



wohoo



harap sempat kurus

Run Forest Run

balik hampir tengah malam semalam ...

tengok jiran dah angkut semua barang atas lori
pindah rumah


seriously
i suddenly realize
people are running away from me

hahaha

padan muka aku

Isnt It A Mystery ?

I got up from bed suddenly in the middle of the night deep in thought wondering 

Why all of the sudden the Home Ministry decided to put the restriction 

to The Weekly Herald before granting them the license 

when the magazine has been in existence since 1994.?

Why suddenly that the Ministry is all Islamist? 

We all know that the word has been used by them ever since long ago but since religion is a very personal matter .. and if you were to ask a Muslim Mukmin  he would of course say "No" .. Allah should be exclusively used by the Muslims.

The Ministry has suddenly switched the religious sensitivity of both the Christians and Muslims when they prick the very core of the Muslim belief and fanning the situation claiming as if NOW the Christians demand to use the word when they .. the Ministry has been granting the license all these years to The Weekly Herald without any qualms.

I know you know that the Christians do use the word of Allah to refer to their God .. but if you ask any Muslim Mukmin .. IS IT THE SAME ALLAH .... ? of the course the answer is NO

We would never interfere of course if the Christians still insist using the word Allah .. but for me to say its the same Allah I pray to ... well I m sorry I will never do that.

 

and the Judge was right in saying that the Constitution is silent on the exclusivity of the word Allah to be used ONLY by the Muslims ... (thus leading to his decision)

hmm.. but of course she is right to fall back on the constitution because the constitution is the "supreme  law of the Federation" and that alone is a proof that we are never in the first place an Islamic country

I am in no way want to stir or fight with my fellow Christians ..  but I am sorry that I will never say that its alright for them to use and that the Allah they refer to IS NOT Allah that I believe and hold on to .... its a very personal matter

... I blame it on the Home Ministry to why suddenly rock the boat with the issue ...

I seriously wonder "Why now ....................... ???" Is it a provocation ?

* I m not surprise if one day the government will suddenly shout " Ni .. Kristian dok kata Isa anak tuhan nih...." just to provoke the Muslims ... again...

The Fight For The Use Of "The Word"

I know that there are two views on this matter ..

1. those who dont mind ; and

2. those who are against it.


my main stand is that even if you dont mind the Christians using the word Allah, I am sure you should know by now that they are capable of arguing and debating their so called right ON THEIR OWN.

Why should we the MUSLIMS go all out supporting them
even at the expense of our relationship with our Muslim Brothers and Sister ?

Why oh Why ... ???

Looks like the Christians need not do anything .. they can just sit and relax and let their "Muslims brother(s)" fight for them and help them out ....

I know .. at first I had the same idea too .. what the fuss is all about for the Christians to use the word Allah to refer to the same Allah .. but hey ... after some thoughts I realise when they refer to what we (Muslims) perceive as the same Allah ... its actually NO !. They cant be referring to the same Allah because the Allah that they are referring too .. is Allah who they claimed to have a son !!!!

We all know that from the beginning the Christians and the Jews have been using the word Allah longgggg before the coming of Islam .. but when Rasulullah SAW came ... Allah had clearly announced that the ONLY religion for HIM is Islam (Inna ad deen i'nda Allah al Islam) and that HE clearly said that what they the Christians are saying are all lies .... about him having a son and all ...

since the Christians and the Jews opted out Islam ... it is my opinion that they have no right to refer Allah as the same Allah that they believed is their GOD, because Allah had denounced them ...

and how we the Muslims could let them DEMAND to use the word Allah when we know how Allah himself had refused them ..

its common sense

I know the debate between Islam and Christianity would never come to an end. Whatever their arguments are on this matter we should just let them be .. because we the Muslims know that the only guidance can only come from HIM, not us .. no matter how much we love them

"inna ka la tahdi man ahbabta"

just let them be

"lakum deenu kum wa liya deen"

Muslims .... who are for the Christians to use the word Allah should really re asses again your view .. how come you can support the people whom your LOVED ONE denies !!!???

WHERE IS YOUR LOYALTY ????

let them fight this matter on their own ...

we the Muslims have enough other issues to fight among ourselves

*Ok I know many hate that political party who suddenly are on the streets to show their anger .. I guess thats the only issues they feel they can champion the Malay Muslims for their so called Ketuanan Melayu .. its never about Islam in the first place. Had it been about Islam they must have been camping in the streets to protest since 1951 ......

I M Sorry

but

you will forever be stuck in the rut

if you dont sort out your issues


:-|

Issues

Putih the outside cat peed on the guest room bed.

Dont worry Yan and Blue and Lin .. or sweet Aliza .. its taken care of at the nick of time .... it hasnt sipped into the bed .. saved by the cover ... I guarantee that you all wont smell a thing when you come and visit me next time ..

I dont feel bad about the peeing issue. I also dont feel bad anymore about many inner issues that I ve been facing .... Alhamdulillah

I omitted part of this entry to make way for you to read an article by our Brother Faisal Tehrani in his blog regarding the issue .... http://tehranifaisal.blogspot.com/2010/01/allah-lagi.html

Astaghfirullahal Adzim ... Semoga Allah mengampuni kiranya saya telah tersalah dan semoga DIA tunjukkan jalan yang benar untuk kita semua

Amin

Selamat Tahun Baru

I was once being told that my life is divided into phases of six years range … I didnt want to believe that, but then all good predictions are believable. We just dont want to believe the bad ones.

I ve been writing in this blog for more or less SIX years and I really felt like I needed to move on to another blog , to have a fresh start, to have that excitement of having something new .. (dont we all love new things ?!)

but there are things in life when you cannot just get up and leave and move .. even when you dont like it .. or cant even stand it ... haha like family of course and like marriage too. You dont just get out when things are not up to it .. you just stay and try to hold on .. unless when its too exhaustive and too hurtful .. then only you ll have to let it go .. (but you still cant do it with families anyways)

many things happened around those six years ... and of course not all were jotted down here .. some things have changed .. some are still the same ... but the year 2009 must be one of the toughest for me .. emotionally .. I had issues to sort out .. decisions to make .. it wasnt easy and I was so down and felt so low .... but you know what .. Alhamdulillah .. I survive !

i learned how to put my two feet down and i also learned how to handle the consequences that came along with the decisions ... it saddened me but every once in a while we all have to come to that point of making choices in life ...

I may have let go a few things last year ... but after some serious thoughts i dont think i will be able to let go of this blog ... i want to have another may be six, maybe seven or even ten years of wonderful journey and lots of new and colorful adventures too (insyaAllah) with this blog and may I spend more time here than in the Facebook

I have to stop saying to myself that I m getting older

..so as to have a joke with me today .... Allah sent me this wonderful 84 years old American lady who is amazingly fit and strong .. with a camera in hand (Canon 350 mind you) ... who has a name card with email address ... having a good time WALKING in alor star ..

I told here I wanted to be like her when I m 84 (insyaAllah) ...

:-)