White 'Tudung' on MyKad
Ohh... finally they decide that anyone wearing white tudung/scarf or those with white turban can now have their ID with colored background !!!
The reason :
An old chinese lady with white hair complained that she was asked to wear scraf (!) because they cannot change the white/very light blue as the background.
I have not picked my new MyKad yet, simply because I hate my photo on the card. The forgetful me went for my new ID card wearing white tudung and was forced to wear the red veil (apparently available at the office). I couldnt manage the tudung, and the second I sat on the stool *snap* it was done.
The result : Ohhh.. I hate it ! Me in any other color than white is a NO No and I look like a 40 year old makcik !
Thursday, June 24, 2004
Friday, June 11, 2004
Nora and the Four 'Mat's
I had a good talk with Nora last night. We were talking about relationships and all, men and women things, when she brought up (again) the idea that her grandmother used to tell her time and time again when she was young.
" Orang perempuan ni kena ada 4 'mat'
1. JiMat
2. CerMat
3. KhidMat
4. HorMat "
"All women should have these 4 things :-
1. Economical
2. Conscientious
3. Service
4. Respect "
Ohh.. how Nora hates the words of wisdom of her late grandmother. She just couldnt get it for a fact that why does the concept was stressed only on women and not men.
"I hate it ! Why do they have to shove the idea on women. Why cant they just say something like 'All of us (men and women) should have these 4 things ..?"
Looking back I think the feeling of resentment Nora has goes back to her younger days when her parents favoured her younger brother as to the other 3 sisters. The brother would always get the best and was spoilt by her father. Favouring the sons is always the norm in Asian culture.
I would only be laughing everytime she keeps on rambling about her garndmother's words. I have nothing against that concept, in fact I'm for it. I adhere to the idea that women should be submissive to men, the husbands I mean. You could say that I'm a bit conservative here, but I really think the wives especially should apply the concept, particularly on the last one "respect". But then again there would always be an arguement on what kind of men or husbands who should deserve the respect.
I think women play a very important role in being mothers and wives. Applying those 4 ideas would do no harm. I once heard from a friend, that it is a must for every Jew women to study up to the university level. It doesnt matter if they get the jobs or not after studying, but to have a high level of education is considered significant, because mothers are the ones who would mould the future generation. Even in America, the ones teaching in the pre-school sometimes do have Master degrees. Ever wonder when here in Malaysia, those teachings in the pre-school are sometimes SRP/PMR (lower level of secondary school) leavers. Cant blame them, where in the world in Malaysia can u find a Master degree holder who wants to be paid RM500-00 a month to teach those kindergarten kids ? RM500-00 is considerd high if compared to some pre-school in rural areas where the pay is as little as RM200-00.
Again, as I mentioned in my previous post, a wife is the Prime Minister of the house who plays a very important role behind a King. They should know how to manage the money, the children and of course the husband. I remember the wording of Toula's mother in "My Big Fat Greek Wedding"
"Your father may be the head of the family, but I am the neck; I can make the head turn wherever I like"
I had a good talk with Nora last night. We were talking about relationships and all, men and women things, when she brought up (again) the idea that her grandmother used to tell her time and time again when she was young.
" Orang perempuan ni kena ada 4 'mat'
1. JiMat
2. CerMat
3. KhidMat
4. HorMat "
"All women should have these 4 things :-
1. Economical
2. Conscientious
3. Service
4. Respect "
Ohh.. how Nora hates the words of wisdom of her late grandmother. She just couldnt get it for a fact that why does the concept was stressed only on women and not men.
"I hate it ! Why do they have to shove the idea on women. Why cant they just say something like 'All of us (men and women) should have these 4 things ..?"
Looking back I think the feeling of resentment Nora has goes back to her younger days when her parents favoured her younger brother as to the other 3 sisters. The brother would always get the best and was spoilt by her father. Favouring the sons is always the norm in Asian culture.
I would only be laughing everytime she keeps on rambling about her garndmother's words. I have nothing against that concept, in fact I'm for it. I adhere to the idea that women should be submissive to men, the husbands I mean. You could say that I'm a bit conservative here, but I really think the wives especially should apply the concept, particularly on the last one "respect". But then again there would always be an arguement on what kind of men or husbands who should deserve the respect.
I think women play a very important role in being mothers and wives. Applying those 4 ideas would do no harm. I once heard from a friend, that it is a must for every Jew women to study up to the university level. It doesnt matter if they get the jobs or not after studying, but to have a high level of education is considered significant, because mothers are the ones who would mould the future generation. Even in America, the ones teaching in the pre-school sometimes do have Master degrees. Ever wonder when here in Malaysia, those teachings in the pre-school are sometimes SRP/PMR (lower level of secondary school) leavers. Cant blame them, where in the world in Malaysia can u find a Master degree holder who wants to be paid RM500-00 a month to teach those kindergarten kids ? RM500-00 is considerd high if compared to some pre-school in rural areas where the pay is as little as RM200-00.
Again, as I mentioned in my previous post, a wife is the Prime Minister of the house who plays a very important role behind a King. They should know how to manage the money, the children and of course the husband. I remember the wording of Toula's mother in "My Big Fat Greek Wedding"
"Your father may be the head of the family, but I am the neck; I can make the head turn wherever I like"
Thursday, June 10, 2004
Beautiful ..? Who.. me ..?
I was reading Sleeksexycat's blog where she was telling about the talent scout who stopped her asking her whether she would want to be a model for future advertisement. Wow ! I said to myself. She must really look good (though I ve never met her). To think that anyone would stop me for my look .. that is awesome !
I am not one who is considered beautiful or even good looking. I ve realised this for quite some times, since I was even a teenager. But I know of a few people who claim that I am kind of sweet. Just sweet. But not good looking enough to make some guys whistle or even drool over. Even if a stranger comes and says hello to me, I would probably look behind first before asking him for sure "Who.. me..?".
So beauty is in the eye of the beholder. How come all these beholders usually have the same definition of beauty ? My best friend in campus was beautiful (I bet she still is). I got so used of seing her getting all the atentions from the men. To the extent that I was not even known (among the guys) as for me, myself, Ann. I was known as 'her' best friend.There was one time when I had a 'small' crush on this one guy, and I thought he was looking at my way when actually his eyes were on someone on the other way .. yeap its her again. I never resented that though. I took it as it was.
And whenever I go to the gym with another friend of mine, men seem to flock her like shes one helpless lad. I asked cK for that matter, and he said that its maybe I have this certain aura around me. An aura of an independant woman, who looks serious and no-nonsense and as if she doesnt need a man. "And that perhaps you have that look that if the guy goes and says hello to you, you would give a look like "whats-the-hello-for" ..."
Yes, because of that inferiority complex in the look department, it never occured to me that someone would really be interested in me. "Even if there were men who were interested in you, they would have given up .. because of your ignorance in sensing the interest of others in you " so said cK.
"But you knew how to ..."
"Ohh.. thats because I'm one of the most patient man in the world "
"Maybe it really takes a real man to really know how to win my heart ....."
".. and because I look far beyond looks .. and I see the beauty somewhere there ..."
" Who... me...????"
I was reading Sleeksexycat's blog where she was telling about the talent scout who stopped her asking her whether she would want to be a model for future advertisement. Wow ! I said to myself. She must really look good (though I ve never met her). To think that anyone would stop me for my look .. that is awesome !
I am not one who is considered beautiful or even good looking. I ve realised this for quite some times, since I was even a teenager. But I know of a few people who claim that I am kind of sweet. Just sweet. But not good looking enough to make some guys whistle or even drool over. Even if a stranger comes and says hello to me, I would probably look behind first before asking him for sure "Who.. me..?".
So beauty is in the eye of the beholder. How come all these beholders usually have the same definition of beauty ? My best friend in campus was beautiful (I bet she still is). I got so used of seing her getting all the atentions from the men. To the extent that I was not even known (among the guys) as for me, myself, Ann. I was known as 'her' best friend.There was one time when I had a 'small' crush on this one guy, and I thought he was looking at my way when actually his eyes were on someone on the other way .. yeap its her again. I never resented that though. I took it as it was.
And whenever I go to the gym with another friend of mine, men seem to flock her like shes one helpless lad. I asked cK for that matter, and he said that its maybe I have this certain aura around me. An aura of an independant woman, who looks serious and no-nonsense and as if she doesnt need a man. "And that perhaps you have that look that if the guy goes and says hello to you, you would give a look like "whats-the-hello-for" ..."
Yes, because of that inferiority complex in the look department, it never occured to me that someone would really be interested in me. "Even if there were men who were interested in you, they would have given up .. because of your ignorance in sensing the interest of others in you " so said cK.
"But you knew how to ..."
"Ohh.. thats because I'm one of the most patient man in the world "
"Maybe it really takes a real man to really know how to win my heart ....."
".. and because I look far beyond looks .. and I see the beauty somewhere there ..."
" Who... me...????"
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Why Polygamy
The majority of women would be ready to beat me up after reading this posting. I have been wanting to write about this for quite sometimes and I think why not now ?
Allah says :-
This is the main verse for all when discussing polygamy. Oddly enough the verse is used by both who are for and against polygamy, and the big issue is always the question of 'justice'.
If you cannot be just, why marry another ? So, what does 'just' actually mean ? Just or 'adil' in the Islamic definition is 'to put thing in its place'. Just does not mean equal. It is the ability and the simple act of determining which goes to what and how much is enough. If the first wife has only one child, does the husband have to buy her a van just because the second wife owns one (van) because he has 5 children with the second ?
There are men, and yes, I hear you, most men, are at fault when it comes to being just. Not only dont they buy the first wife a car, they dont even bother to give her adequate maintenance to keep that one child. In short, they abandon them totally. That is the lacking in the men, not in the validity of polygamy.
Sisters in Islam always quote this following ayah in support of their stand that man can never be just and thus, polygamy is not permissible because Allah has confirmed so :-
That is the verse quoted by them, but they fail to quote the whole of the verse :-
While admitting that men can never be fair, Allah did mention that even so, men can never leave their wives just like that, as if hanging in the tree. Which means that Allah knows the weakness of men in being fair, but that should not put a stop in trying to be one. Men are still responsible to take care all of his wives, even if he still favours one to others. (Dont we all have our own favourites after all, be it sons and daughters, nieces, teachers ....)
Take for example in Solah (prayer). It is required that one has to be 'khusyu' (solemn concentration) in solah, to really concentrate and not to be swayed in your thoughts and minds to other things. Nobody, nobody in this world can claim that they can be 100% khusyu in their prayers, but just because we can never be 100% khusyu does that mean that we should not perform solah at all?
I have to admit that the issue of polygamy is an emotional one. Emotional for all women, because, whethere we like it or not, women are controlled by their emotions, not always, but most of the times. Emotion is one of the things that makes us different from men, that special something Allah has granted upon and created in women to be part and parcel of our unique characters.
It is hurtful to find your husband of 20 years suddenly marries another. Being hurt is one thing, but to go all out in preventing the legal, is another. Why should a man get the consent of his first wife to get married to another ? Why do we allow such regulation when there is nothing in the Quran or Hadith that says so.
One has to remember of one thing. "Jodoh" or fate. If its meant to be its meant to, if its not, its not. No matter how flirtatious and how much a man wants to marry another, if its not his 'jodoh' it can never be materialized. But then again, the concept of fate and jodoh is another issue.
Sisters in Islam and some of the women, I see for now, are barkinga at the wrong tree. Why are you shouting at the man who marries another when the 'other' woman actually agrees to it. Rather than fighting the right of the man, why not promoting anti-polygamy to the 'other women' who are being branded with names for stealing other women's men.No matter how much you campaign against the law of polygamy, the core of marriage would go down to the consent of both man and woman. If the woman agrees to it, even if she knows right from the start that the man is married, what is there Sisters in Islam can do ? This kind of instance does not only happen in polygamy cases; What is there can you do if a woman agrees to marry a thug or a drug addict?
Marriage is after all a risk, and one goes into a marriage with blind eyes, be it to a single man or a married man.
The majority of women would be ready to beat me up after reading this posting. I have been wanting to write about this for quite sometimes and I think why not now ?
Allah says :-
"If you fear that you shall not be able to deal justly with the orphans,marry women of your choice, two, or three or four; But if you fear that ye shall not be able to deal justly (with them), then only one ..... That will be more suitable,to prevent you from doing injustice."
Surah Al-Nisa' 4:3 (translation by Abdullah Yusuf Ali)
This is the main verse for all when discussing polygamy. Oddly enough the verse is used by both who are for and against polygamy, and the big issue is always the question of 'justice'.
If you cannot be just, why marry another ? So, what does 'just' actually mean ? Just or 'adil' in the Islamic definition is 'to put thing in its place'. Just does not mean equal. It is the ability and the simple act of determining which goes to what and how much is enough. If the first wife has only one child, does the husband have to buy her a van just because the second wife owns one (van) because he has 5 children with the second ?
There are men, and yes, I hear you, most men, are at fault when it comes to being just. Not only dont they buy the first wife a car, they dont even bother to give her adequate maintenance to keep that one child. In short, they abandon them totally. That is the lacking in the men, not in the validity of polygamy.
Sisters in Islam always quote this following ayah in support of their stand that man can never be just and thus, polygamy is not permissible because Allah has confirmed so :-
"You are never able to be fair and just as between women,
Even if it is your ardent desire...".
Surah An Nisa 129
That is the verse quoted by them, but they fail to quote the whole of the verse :-
"You are never be able to be fair and just as between women, even if it is your ardent desire; but turn not away (from a woman) altogether, so as to leave her (as it were) hanging (in the air). If you come to a friendly understanding, and practise self restrain, god is Oft-forgiving, Most Merciful"
Surah An Nisa 129
While admitting that men can never be fair, Allah did mention that even so, men can never leave their wives just like that, as if hanging in the tree. Which means that Allah knows the weakness of men in being fair, but that should not put a stop in trying to be one. Men are still responsible to take care all of his wives, even if he still favours one to others. (Dont we all have our own favourites after all, be it sons and daughters, nieces, teachers ....)
Take for example in Solah (prayer). It is required that one has to be 'khusyu' (solemn concentration) in solah, to really concentrate and not to be swayed in your thoughts and minds to other things. Nobody, nobody in this world can claim that they can be 100% khusyu in their prayers, but just because we can never be 100% khusyu does that mean that we should not perform solah at all?
I have to admit that the issue of polygamy is an emotional one. Emotional for all women, because, whethere we like it or not, women are controlled by their emotions, not always, but most of the times. Emotion is one of the things that makes us different from men, that special something Allah has granted upon and created in women to be part and parcel of our unique characters.
It is hurtful to find your husband of 20 years suddenly marries another. Being hurt is one thing, but to go all out in preventing the legal, is another. Why should a man get the consent of his first wife to get married to another ? Why do we allow such regulation when there is nothing in the Quran or Hadith that says so.
One has to remember of one thing. "Jodoh" or fate. If its meant to be its meant to, if its not, its not. No matter how flirtatious and how much a man wants to marry another, if its not his 'jodoh' it can never be materialized. But then again, the concept of fate and jodoh is another issue.
Sisters in Islam and some of the women, I see for now, are barkinga at the wrong tree. Why are you shouting at the man who marries another when the 'other' woman actually agrees to it. Rather than fighting the right of the man, why not promoting anti-polygamy to the 'other women' who are being branded with names for stealing other women's men.No matter how much you campaign against the law of polygamy, the core of marriage would go down to the consent of both man and woman. If the woman agrees to it, even if she knows right from the start that the man is married, what is there Sisters in Islam can do ? This kind of instance does not only happen in polygamy cases; What is there can you do if a woman agrees to marry a thug or a drug addict?
Marriage is after all a risk, and one goes into a marriage with blind eyes, be it to a single man or a married man.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
the boy who
made it through against all odds
making every things possible
achieving not only his dreams
giving his best to the rest
you have to love this boy
who makes you smile
and makes you laugh
and brings you all that you love
with all his generous heart
this is the boy
who has turned out to be a wonderful man
a successful one
who stays firm on what he truly believes
who will stand by you
when you're at your worst
but never hopes for a praise
in return for what he has done best
the boy who is now
the man the world respects and admires
who has all the excellent judgment,
stamina, and determination
whom you won't dare to argue
if you don't have the same swift wit
the boy is still in the extraordinary man
but not for all the world to see
those he allows to
must mean a lot to him
ohh.. how I still can't believe
that one of them is me !
A birthday wish for the boy
to stay the person he is today
for all the goodness he brings
May Allah be with him all the way
Happy Birthday Dear Boy !
Friday, February 27, 2004
Election Fever
Election is just around the corner. Cant really tell whether I'm excited or not. Think I'm not THAT excited anymore, like I used to when I was in the campus. Its strange how people can change. Have I changed over these few years. I dont think so. Politically, I still have the same basic ideas about the government and even the oppositions. My ideas and thoughts are still the same but my anxiety of the whole things has faded off. 5-10 years ago, I wouldnt mind debating with the guy/girl next door about why religion and politic do go together and why it is important that we do our part in fighting-in-HIS way. I was a rebellious who wouldnt mind facing anyone who was against my ideas and thoughts. It used to be such a thrill to able to debate with supports from the verses and hadith ( even when I recklessly always forget the original text - only the gist of the meaning). I was full of idealism. The high spirit of a youth.
I am old now. Hahaha... not physically, but mentally. The idea of debating is exhaustive. I learn by years that its quite hard to change people's perceptions and ideas. You might as well have a lenghty discussion with those with the same ideas. I dont get mad or angry anymore when people disagree. I leave things as they are. I would usually keep quiet and just observe. Some of the things they talk now have been preached by me 10 years ago.
I want to resolve more on reading now. I dont read as much as I used to. My readings now are more on fitness. I used to have a very good discussion with cK on sufism, shiah and islamic history in general. We used to read a lot just to keep with each others' knowledge. Hmmm ... may be we should do it again some times.
To quote Kalim Siddique : " .. a muttaqin will never get involved in politics ..."
hmmmmm.... *sigh*
Election is just around the corner. Cant really tell whether I'm excited or not. Think I'm not THAT excited anymore, like I used to when I was in the campus. Its strange how people can change. Have I changed over these few years. I dont think so. Politically, I still have the same basic ideas about the government and even the oppositions. My ideas and thoughts are still the same but my anxiety of the whole things has faded off. 5-10 years ago, I wouldnt mind debating with the guy/girl next door about why religion and politic do go together and why it is important that we do our part in fighting-in-HIS way. I was a rebellious who wouldnt mind facing anyone who was against my ideas and thoughts. It used to be such a thrill to able to debate with supports from the verses and hadith ( even when I recklessly always forget the original text - only the gist of the meaning). I was full of idealism. The high spirit of a youth.
I am old now. Hahaha... not physically, but mentally. The idea of debating is exhaustive. I learn by years that its quite hard to change people's perceptions and ideas. You might as well have a lenghty discussion with those with the same ideas. I dont get mad or angry anymore when people disagree. I leave things as they are. I would usually keep quiet and just observe. Some of the things they talk now have been preached by me 10 years ago.
I want to resolve more on reading now. I dont read as much as I used to. My readings now are more on fitness. I used to have a very good discussion with cK on sufism, shiah and islamic history in general. We used to read a lot just to keep with each others' knowledge. Hmmm ... may be we should do it again some times.
To quote Kalim Siddique : " .. a muttaqin will never get involved in politics ..."
hmmmmm.... *sigh*
Monday, February 16, 2004
Valentine's Day is over rated. I have to agree with most people who still have some senses (or maybe who are still single and secretly wishing someone would send them 240 roses at the door on V day) that why do we have to wait for that particular day only to confess your love. But then... on the other hand, its not that we cant profess our undying love on any other day, but to make it special on that ONE day would make both of the couple happy, especially the girl who would think the man does not love her just because he doesnt bring her roses with a box of choclates and a cute teddy bear. How superficial.
Love is the little thing that he does to remind you of his love like ...
when he rings you in the middle of his busy day just because he wants to have a break by hearing your voice ...
when he brings you your favourite food whenever he comes back from work ..
when he sings a love song while driving in the car with you while looking at you hoping you catch the meaning of the song (even when his voice is terrible) ...
when he 'kutuk' or saying all the bad things he could find on Jamie Aditya Garaham and his programme Sync or Swim just because he knows how much you like the guy ...
and my all time favourite would be
when he stops the car to find a phone booth to continue the conversation when his hand phone is out of battery and hes in the middle of talking to you ....
Now that is LOVE !
Love is the little thing that he does to remind you of his love like ...
when he rings you in the middle of his busy day just because he wants to have a break by hearing your voice ...
when he brings you your favourite food whenever he comes back from work ..
when he sings a love song while driving in the car with you while looking at you hoping you catch the meaning of the song (even when his voice is terrible) ...
when he 'kutuk' or saying all the bad things he could find on Jamie Aditya Garaham and his programme Sync or Swim just because he knows how much you like the guy ...
and my all time favourite would be
when he stops the car to find a phone booth to continue the conversation when his hand phone is out of battery and hes in the middle of talking to you ....
Now that is LOVE !
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Watching the "American Idol", you can easily understand the superiority complex that the Americans have as opposed to most Asians who suffer inferiority complex. I'm not in the position to judge those people, but having superiority complex and high self confident can turn out quite bad.
Some of the voices were terrible, freaky and very weird .. and yet they claimed they CAN sing and believed they re the next "American Idol" !. I was rolling on the floor seing some of them fighting with Simon (especially)( gosh they hate Simon) and accusing the judges incapable of recognising talents.
Sick !
Some of the voices were terrible, freaky and very weird .. and yet they claimed they CAN sing and believed they re the next "American Idol" !. I was rolling on the floor seing some of them fighting with Simon (especially)( gosh they hate Simon) and accusing the judges incapable of recognising talents.
Sick !
Saturday, February 07, 2004
Aku Bukan Pilihan
- Iwan Fals
Kini kumengungkap tanya
Siapakah dirinya ?
Yang mengaku kekasih itu
Aku tak bisa memahami
Ketika malam tiba
Ku rela kau berada
Dengan siapa kau melewatinya
Aku tak bisa memahami
Aku lelaki tak mungkin
Menerimamu bila
Ternyata kau mendua
Membuatku terluka
Tinggalkan saja diriku
Yang tak mungkin menunggu
Jangan pernah memilih
Aku bukan pilihan
Selalu terungkap tanya
Benarkah kini dia
Wanita yang kukenal hatinya
Aku tak bisa memahami
Tak perlu memilihku
Aku lelaki, bukan untuk dipilih
I fell in love right away with this song when I first heard it, so melodic with nice lyric and manly voice of Iwan .... What a song ! Get the song here.
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Its been a while since I last blog, not that I was busy with my work, but I just feel like I dont have anything interesting to tell. Even when there are 'some' excitement, fascinating and good things that have happened, I just couldnt make myself sit and write, i think its just the private part of me and sometimes it can cause a bit of confussion because I really want to write and tell people but on the other hand I feel I should just keep them for myself.
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Anyway, I will be going to Langkawi (finally) if God will, Insya Allah, next week. I've checked around, thru the internet and I think i can only afford a small budget vacation, which means no hotel with swimming pool, just a nice chalet or motel by the beach. In fact I've found this one motel where they have the rooms facing the beach costing only RM85; air cond with tv and one queen size bed. That sounds alright !!! I'm used to having vacation all by myself, but this time I just feel like I may need a company. The thing is not any company, a friend, who understands me and my crazy antics with the beach and the sea, independant and who can swim too. Hmmm... quite a wish as most of my friends are all married with small kids and those single ladies of mine are not into swimming. The only one i can think of is my Sis ......! But she cant make it. Hope to plan it well this time, and yes .. i want to venture more into the sea as there wont be any swimming pool. Body board is suffice i think, in exchange of surfing, as Langkawi sucks for surfing (hahahaha talking like a pro.. when I cant even stand on the board) :0
- Iwan Fals
Kini kumengungkap tanya
Siapakah dirinya ?
Yang mengaku kekasih itu
Aku tak bisa memahami
Ketika malam tiba
Ku rela kau berada
Dengan siapa kau melewatinya
Aku tak bisa memahami
Aku lelaki tak mungkin
Menerimamu bila
Ternyata kau mendua
Membuatku terluka
Tinggalkan saja diriku
Yang tak mungkin menunggu
Jangan pernah memilih
Aku bukan pilihan
Selalu terungkap tanya
Benarkah kini dia
Wanita yang kukenal hatinya
Aku tak bisa memahami
Tak perlu memilihku
Aku lelaki, bukan untuk dipilih
I fell in love right away with this song when I first heard it, so melodic with nice lyric and manly voice of Iwan .... What a song ! Get the song here.
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Its been a while since I last blog, not that I was busy with my work, but I just feel like I dont have anything interesting to tell. Even when there are 'some' excitement, fascinating and good things that have happened, I just couldnt make myself sit and write, i think its just the private part of me and sometimes it can cause a bit of confussion because I really want to write and tell people but on the other hand I feel I should just keep them for myself.
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Anyway, I will be going to Langkawi (finally) if God will, Insya Allah, next week. I've checked around, thru the internet and I think i can only afford a small budget vacation, which means no hotel with swimming pool, just a nice chalet or motel by the beach. In fact I've found this one motel where they have the rooms facing the beach costing only RM85; air cond with tv and one queen size bed. That sounds alright !!! I'm used to having vacation all by myself, but this time I just feel like I may need a company. The thing is not any company, a friend, who understands me and my crazy antics with the beach and the sea, independant and who can swim too. Hmmm... quite a wish as most of my friends are all married with small kids and those single ladies of mine are not into swimming. The only one i can think of is my Sis ......! But she cant make it. Hope to plan it well this time, and yes .. i want to venture more into the sea as there wont be any swimming pool. Body board is suffice i think, in exchange of surfing, as Langkawi sucks for surfing (hahahaha talking like a pro.. when I cant even stand on the board) :0
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
I like Indonesia, especially Indonesians, the people of Indonesia. My keen and respect for them started when I was in Form 5, when History of Indonesia was part of the syllabus. I might have forgotten some facts from the history book, but the admiration still lives on till this day.
They fought for their independence, and with their own blood. I have to admit I felt a slight dissapointment that Malaysia got our independance by mere talks and obligating ourselves to what the British had carefully and subtly outlined for us. I have this idea that the price of our independence would not be the same had we gained it through our own blood so that we can tell the children to walk on the ground with proud and love because the blood that built your country today are still flowing throughout the country. Thats what Indonesians have been telling their children and their generation to come.
There was one time when I had the chance to join my campus educational trip to Medan and Acheh somewhere in 1991. I began to observe the Indonesia students' thought; their maturity and their intelligence awed me. I'm not saying that Malaysians are not up to the standard, but I feel that we lack something. I sensed pride and confidence in their caharacteristic. Proud of themselves as Indonesians and confidence of their own capabalities. I began to appreciate the language as well, so smooth. I dont know whether its because of the language itself or is it because of their flow of thoughts.
During that trip, on our way to Acheh from Medan, we stopped by at one of the schools (I've forgotten the name). They put us on the stage where we had to introduce ourselves and gave some briefings about our students council and some other stuffs like the objectives of the trip and so on to the whole school. There was this one guy from our group, (me and Nada, my friend were not really fond of him ; just for the record during some brief intro prior this session, he told all of us and the Indonesian Students who were our host where we were staying, that his ambition was to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia ; duh !) who took the lead in briefing the students and he did include about ABIM activities as well and its strong connection with the Malaysia government (of which was very irrelevnat as the trip had nothing to do with ABIM in the first place; its just because most of the committees were ABIM members). His briefing was very simple and he touched only the surface but he looked very arrogant.
One student from the crowd suddenly stood up . He was actually supposed to ask question, but he ended up briefing us back the whole history of ABIM and the detail story of Anwar (Ibrahim)'s first involvemment with UMNO and the frustration of ABIM's top members at that time of Anwar's big step, while giving his own comments on the issue. Ohh he really put us in hot seats, but I was loving every moment of it and to watch Nik's (the ABIM man) face turned red, it was great. The Indonesia student was really prepared and he knew "our" stuffs. I was amazed and from then on, I'm hooked! !.
I was so happy and amazed when I first found out that Indonesians start to vote at the age of 17, which to me shows a lot. It means that by the age of 17 they would have to think about politics irregardless the fact that some merely love the fun of the parade and coloring their faces during election times. The thing is they know they can make a difference to their country with their one vote. While here in Malaysia, youre not supposed to talk about politics even when youre a university student *sob* *sob* *sob*. Indonesia tought their children to be brave, to stand for what you believe, to fight for justice and be proud of it and the phase of "Reformasi" time showed it all. I was so excited of the whole thing, to join the chat session with the Indonesia students discussing about reformasi . If only I were there I that time, I would have surely joined the rally.
But I know its not about excitement in Indonesia. What I see from here is not the same. Its a struggle everyday even just to make a living. If youre from a well to do family youre blessed, if not , youre lucky just to be able to have lunch today. Its not easy to take care of 234,893,453 (July 2003 est.) people. You just have to make use all that you have even if you only have to depend on mere pride and the fighter in you.
They fought for their independence, and with their own blood. I have to admit I felt a slight dissapointment that Malaysia got our independance by mere talks and obligating ourselves to what the British had carefully and subtly outlined for us. I have this idea that the price of our independence would not be the same had we gained it through our own blood so that we can tell the children to walk on the ground with proud and love because the blood that built your country today are still flowing throughout the country. Thats what Indonesians have been telling their children and their generation to come.
There was one time when I had the chance to join my campus educational trip to Medan and Acheh somewhere in 1991. I began to observe the Indonesia students' thought; their maturity and their intelligence awed me. I'm not saying that Malaysians are not up to the standard, but I feel that we lack something. I sensed pride and confidence in their caharacteristic. Proud of themselves as Indonesians and confidence of their own capabalities. I began to appreciate the language as well, so smooth. I dont know whether its because of the language itself or is it because of their flow of thoughts.
During that trip, on our way to Acheh from Medan, we stopped by at one of the schools (I've forgotten the name). They put us on the stage where we had to introduce ourselves and gave some briefings about our students council and some other stuffs like the objectives of the trip and so on to the whole school. There was this one guy from our group, (me and Nada, my friend were not really fond of him ; just for the record during some brief intro prior this session, he told all of us and the Indonesian Students who were our host where we were staying, that his ambition was to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia ; duh !) who took the lead in briefing the students and he did include about ABIM activities as well and its strong connection with the Malaysia government (of which was very irrelevnat as the trip had nothing to do with ABIM in the first place; its just because most of the committees were ABIM members). His briefing was very simple and he touched only the surface but he looked very arrogant.
One student from the crowd suddenly stood up . He was actually supposed to ask question, but he ended up briefing us back the whole history of ABIM and the detail story of Anwar (Ibrahim)'s first involvemment with UMNO and the frustration of ABIM's top members at that time of Anwar's big step, while giving his own comments on the issue. Ohh he really put us in hot seats, but I was loving every moment of it and to watch Nik's (the ABIM man) face turned red, it was great. The Indonesia student was really prepared and he knew "our" stuffs. I was amazed and from then on, I'm hooked! !.
I was so happy and amazed when I first found out that Indonesians start to vote at the age of 17, which to me shows a lot. It means that by the age of 17 they would have to think about politics irregardless the fact that some merely love the fun of the parade and coloring their faces during election times. The thing is they know they can make a difference to their country with their one vote. While here in Malaysia, youre not supposed to talk about politics even when youre a university student *sob* *sob* *sob*. Indonesia tought their children to be brave, to stand for what you believe, to fight for justice and be proud of it and the phase of "Reformasi" time showed it all. I was so excited of the whole thing, to join the chat session with the Indonesia students discussing about reformasi . If only I were there I that time, I would have surely joined the rally.
But I know its not about excitement in Indonesia. What I see from here is not the same. Its a struggle everyday even just to make a living. If youre from a well to do family youre blessed, if not , youre lucky just to be able to have lunch today. Its not easy to take care of 234,893,453 (July 2003 est.) people. You just have to make use all that you have even if you only have to depend on mere pride and the fighter in you.
Monday, January 19, 2004
Watched Oprah Show this morning. The topic : "What Happens After the Wedding?". It was an interesting topic. They were talking about how most couples, usually the bride-to-be, who were so caught up with the "moment of their life time" the wedding plan, that they tend to forget the true meaning of the marriage itself. From the moment the proposal was made, the engagement period and untill the wedding day itself, they were like in cloud nine. Only after everythings over and the cakes are all gone, did they realize that they actually have a lot of adjustment to do with their new life.
I once heard someones saying : "The happinness of getting married only last three days". I laughed when I heard it. But I have to agree that there might be some truth in it. When we were younger, we had our own visions of what marriage should be, like fairy tale stories, where the stories would end with " ... and they lived happily ever after". Nobody told us at that time that Cinderella would have to endure the whole of her life with Prince Charming's habit of not putting back the toohpaste cap back after use, nor about her constant fight with the in-laws (as well as the step-sisters who were still on her back).
You may have known your partner as your boyfriend/girlfriend for 10 years, but to actually live with him in the same house and to share the bed, when you used to have the space all for yourself and now to have some sort of tug-of-war for the blanket ...... every nite. For some, even living together before marriage is still not the same as the actual marriage. When you live together theres still a notion at the back of your mind that you still have the chance to escape by just moving out at nite, but after being married, that sort of idea somehow doesnt sound that simple.
Theres also the issue of being married to his family too. You have to accept his family as part of your life now. No matter how bad the mother-in-law is, she is now as good as your mother (even if your mother is slightly worse). The worst case is when you get to marry a mama's boy. Oh no ... no .. no .. no.. youre really heading for trouble if you dont know how to handle it properly. A mama's boy will always be a mama's boy even at the age of 60, you will have a constant struggle to win the man you love. To his mother you re the woman who has taken his baby boy from her. Ohh.. its not a good situation at all ......
One of the panelist in the Oprah Show suggested that you should have a list of questions that both of you and your husband-to-be should answer honestly, before the wedding. I think my the questions would be like :-
1. Are we to have a joint account
2. Who will pay the car and who will pay the house
3. How many times per week should you visit your in-laws
4. How much money can both of you give to your own family, for the sisters/brothers
5. What happens if one of you is attracted to someone else ,
6. Would you accept polygamy ...
7. If you have children what sort of education would you like them to have, the type of school they would go, the sort of discipline you want them to adhere to
Yes all the questions would definitely have the answers, at that particular time. It would not be the same as when you really face the realities, but at least the questions would give you some basic ideas on where your partner stands on certain issues.
I am still single and almost all my friends are married. At the age of 20-25 I used to envy them, for having someone to love and loving them in return. But now, not all of them are "...living happily ever after". Some are divorced, some are having problems and yes some are really happy. I'm not against marriage. I'm not hunting for the potential bridegroom nor am I running from him. I take things as they come. If its meant to be, its meant to. We all have our dreams and hopes, but we cant have everything that we want. Our life after all is destined (oddly somehow by our own choices.......)
"What we shall be is written .........."
I once heard someones saying : "The happinness of getting married only last three days". I laughed when I heard it. But I have to agree that there might be some truth in it. When we were younger, we had our own visions of what marriage should be, like fairy tale stories, where the stories would end with " ... and they lived happily ever after". Nobody told us at that time that Cinderella would have to endure the whole of her life with Prince Charming's habit of not putting back the toohpaste cap back after use, nor about her constant fight with the in-laws (as well as the step-sisters who were still on her back).
You may have known your partner as your boyfriend/girlfriend for 10 years, but to actually live with him in the same house and to share the bed, when you used to have the space all for yourself and now to have some sort of tug-of-war for the blanket ...... every nite. For some, even living together before marriage is still not the same as the actual marriage. When you live together theres still a notion at the back of your mind that you still have the chance to escape by just moving out at nite, but after being married, that sort of idea somehow doesnt sound that simple.
Theres also the issue of being married to his family too. You have to accept his family as part of your life now. No matter how bad the mother-in-law is, she is now as good as your mother (even if your mother is slightly worse). The worst case is when you get to marry a mama's boy. Oh no ... no .. no .. no.. youre really heading for trouble if you dont know how to handle it properly. A mama's boy will always be a mama's boy even at the age of 60, you will have a constant struggle to win the man you love. To his mother you re the woman who has taken his baby boy from her. Ohh.. its not a good situation at all ......
One of the panelist in the Oprah Show suggested that you should have a list of questions that both of you and your husband-to-be should answer honestly, before the wedding. I think my the questions would be like :-
1. Are we to have a joint account
2. Who will pay the car and who will pay the house
3. How many times per week should you visit your in-laws
4. How much money can both of you give to your own family, for the sisters/brothers
5. What happens if one of you is attracted to someone else ,
6. Would you accept polygamy ...
7. If you have children what sort of education would you like them to have, the type of school they would go, the sort of discipline you want them to adhere to
Yes all the questions would definitely have the answers, at that particular time. It would not be the same as when you really face the realities, but at least the questions would give you some basic ideas on where your partner stands on certain issues.
I am still single and almost all my friends are married. At the age of 20-25 I used to envy them, for having someone to love and loving them in return. But now, not all of them are "...living happily ever after". Some are divorced, some are having problems and yes some are really happy. I'm not against marriage. I'm not hunting for the potential bridegroom nor am I running from him. I take things as they come. If its meant to be, its meant to. We all have our dreams and hopes, but we cant have everything that we want. Our life after all is destined (oddly somehow by our own choices.......)
Friday, January 09, 2004
Got this from Ijul's site
Your Brain Usage Profile
Auditory : 46%
Visual : 53%
Left : 70%
Right : 29%
Ann, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
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Am I like that ... ? Hmm.. I doubt about the 'tendency to be organized' part. Because for once you should all come and see my office room; with the files scattering all over the place. But my room in my house is not that bad... simply because there are no files *ehem*.
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Still in the mood of talking about politics.
A few days back I saw one banner with the words " Kami Peniaga-Peniaga Kecil Melayu Menyokong Penuh Dato' Yusof Nayan Sebagai Dato' Bandar Alor Setar" ( We the Small Malay Traders Are In Full Support of Dato' Yusuf Nayan as the Mayor of Alor Setar". Why the banner ? What are they trying to tell the people? I see nothing else except that there must be some people who are not satisfied that Dato Yusuf Nayan has been chosen to be the Mayor. And the ones putting up the banner are those people trying to show their loyalty and support, when it could have been Dato' Yusuf Nayan's idea himself. Hehehe. Had there not been any kind of banner of that sort, nobody would detect the frictions somewhere.
I hate that sort of banner because I have this sneaky feelings that its done for somebody's own political purpose. When you see that kind of banner, you will know right away that somebodys jacking up somebody's a** . Sorry for the latter .. cant help it .
Your Brain Usage Profile
Auditory : 46%
Visual : 53%
Left : 70%
Right : 29%
Ann, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
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Am I like that ... ? Hmm.. I doubt about the 'tendency to be organized' part. Because for once you should all come and see my office room; with the files scattering all over the place. But my room in my house is not that bad... simply because there are no files *ehem*.
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Still in the mood of talking about politics.
A few days back I saw one banner with the words " Kami Peniaga-Peniaga Kecil Melayu Menyokong Penuh Dato' Yusof Nayan Sebagai Dato' Bandar Alor Setar" ( We the Small Malay Traders Are In Full Support of Dato' Yusuf Nayan as the Mayor of Alor Setar". Why the banner ? What are they trying to tell the people? I see nothing else except that there must be some people who are not satisfied that Dato Yusuf Nayan has been chosen to be the Mayor. And the ones putting up the banner are those people trying to show their loyalty and support, when it could have been Dato' Yusuf Nayan's idea himself. Hehehe. Had there not been any kind of banner of that sort, nobody would detect the frictions somewhere.
I hate that sort of banner because I have this sneaky feelings that its done for somebody's own political purpose. When you see that kind of banner, you will know right away that somebodys jacking up somebody's a** . Sorry for the latter .. cant help it .
Thursday, January 08, 2004
Rosnah Aiming For PM
The PM Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi annouced yesterday that Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak is now the Deputy Prime Minister of Malaysia. Najib as he fondly called, has been the favourite one and his name had been mentioned for a number of ocassions by the then PM, Tun Dr Mahathir, and everybody knew that he might be the next in line to be the DPM after Pak Lah. Its quite a disspointment actually to see Najib as the future PM, but I guess Pak Lah has no choice. It has to be Najib.
1. He got the most vote during the recent UMNO election as one of the top three Deputy Presidents , which means that he has a good grassroot support from the UMNO members
2. He has been in the cabinet for as long as anyone can remember . He was elected to be the Deputy Minister of Telecom and Post when he was only 24, and he is now 51.
3. He has a good political background family, being the son of the late ex-PM, Tun Razak and being closely related to the late, also an ex-PM, Tun Hussein Onn.
Pak Lah cannot ignore the hints given by the ex-PM when he kept mentioning Najib to be the one.
If given a choice I would prefer Muhyideen Yassin, he is now holding the Ministry of Agriculture, which is a good thing since there are a lot of opportunities for him to be populor among the 'rakyat' in the lower grassroot, and if hes smart he can build a good base from there.
And yes, everybody in UMNO would be singing praises and vows supporting the decision by Pak Lah, but one should know UMNO's culture, nobody dares to be against the 'big wave' unless theres somebody up there in the high post has another thought in mind . But we shall see whether another book of " 50 Dalil Kenapa Najib Tidak Boleh Jadi PM" (50 Reasons Why Najib Cannot be PM) will be published.
Ohh as to why above title of Rosmah, well, Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor is Najib's wife. Isnt it the wife is the main person behind any man, the one whos in actual control of the affairs of the husband, the Queen, the PM of the House (when the Husband is only the KING). Yes, wife actually rules the house, and in this case, Rosmah without any doubt will actually be our next PM, (if only Najib can endure everything to keep the current post). LOL
The PM Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi annouced yesterday that Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak is now the Deputy Prime Minister of Malaysia. Najib as he fondly called, has been the favourite one and his name had been mentioned for a number of ocassions by the then PM, Tun Dr Mahathir, and everybody knew that he might be the next in line to be the DPM after Pak Lah. Its quite a disspointment actually to see Najib as the future PM, but I guess Pak Lah has no choice. It has to be Najib.
1. He got the most vote during the recent UMNO election as one of the top three Deputy Presidents , which means that he has a good grassroot support from the UMNO members
2. He has been in the cabinet for as long as anyone can remember . He was elected to be the Deputy Minister of Telecom and Post when he was only 24, and he is now 51.
3. He has a good political background family, being the son of the late ex-PM, Tun Razak and being closely related to the late, also an ex-PM, Tun Hussein Onn.
Pak Lah cannot ignore the hints given by the ex-PM when he kept mentioning Najib to be the one.
If given a choice I would prefer Muhyideen Yassin, he is now holding the Ministry of Agriculture, which is a good thing since there are a lot of opportunities for him to be populor among the 'rakyat' in the lower grassroot, and if hes smart he can build a good base from there.
And yes, everybody in UMNO would be singing praises and vows supporting the decision by Pak Lah, but one should know UMNO's culture, nobody dares to be against the 'big wave' unless theres somebody up there in the high post has another thought in mind . But we shall see whether another book of " 50 Dalil Kenapa Najib Tidak Boleh Jadi PM" (50 Reasons Why Najib Cannot be PM) will be published.
Ohh as to why above title of Rosmah, well, Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor is Najib's wife. Isnt it the wife is the main person behind any man, the one whos in actual control of the affairs of the husband, the Queen, the PM of the House (when the Husband is only the KING). Yes, wife actually rules the house, and in this case, Rosmah without any doubt will actually be our next PM, (if only Najib can endure everything to keep the current post). LOL
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
I found this new site fairy.mahdzan.com a girl who is so fascinated and obsessed with Indonesia as much as I do, but shes better than me in the sense that she put her fascination in beautiful writings and photos and almost everything about Indonesia in her webbie. I was in awe reading all her stories, especially on the her travelling part like the times she went to Jakarta and her 12 hour train ride to Yogyakarta. Gosh .. how I envy her. Shes having all the fun I ve been wishing to do. And yes, the time she went to Dewa gig and meeting them and taking pictures with Dhani, I'm not really into Dewa as I was before, past my maturity age, but then still.... she sure had a swelling fun time. And the best part of all, she surfs ! Gosh I must meet this girl !
Friday, January 02, 2004
Actually, this result is actually BETTER than average.
You will have a perfect job. You will make a lot of money.
The job that you will have is being a kind of doctor.
You will not marry.
Many women will like you or did like you in your college,
but you don't think anybody is good enough for you. You will live in a two-story house when you are older. Two stories all for you is good enough for you! You will have many dinners in your house.
The bad news is that you will be very lonely and sad - perhaps
almost depressed when you are older. Yes, you will think that money is not everything in your life.
Feel good young man. You will not bald
/*_*\ Your hair will be the same as it is right now.
You will feel that you are one of the prettiest woman there is for your age /*_*\
You will be the over average woman.
In your future, nothing will hurt you.
Only pain on the outside. When you are 87 years old,
you will die of painful cancer.
The Quiz of Luck - What Will Happen In Your Future?
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How inspiring ......... But I am sure that "what we shall be is written ........" and may Allah guide me all the way and may He give me patience to endure everything .....
Thursday, January 01, 2004
On Fitness
People always talk about resolution and all. Well I had one last year, "to be fit". Think I've achieved that, and with flying colors too, I must say. Loosing 6 kg is a achievment especially going through the diet and all. Hmmm.. as to fitness wise, my resolution this year would be to look like one of the women in the cover of Muscle & Fitness - Hers magazine, with some defined muscles and a good 6 pack ab .....
On Emotion
Enough of my fitness freak. On the emotional level, I just wish to have a better control of my own feelings, to be able to see things clearly from a few angles before I make any assumptions and jump into conclusions. Like cK always say to me:
"You cant change peoples behaviour, they can be mean, selfish or arrogant and all, they can make you feel sad and hurt. You cant change them but you can change your reactions towards them, you can take control of your own thoughts and feelings. Their words may hurt you, but if you choose not to let those words affect you, it can help a lot.
It all depends on you; what you choose to affect you and what you choose to ignore"
On Love
I have to repeat this mantra again and again to have a fulfilling relationship
You love a person for what he is, and when you fall in love, you really hope that your feeling is reciprocated. But whatever you give to him is out of your love, if he return it with love and affection too, its a bonus, if not, well .. you ve done your part by loving him...
On Career
To have a better concentration on my work and to have a zero deffect on the documentations prepared.
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
Sunday, December 28, 2003
Ohhhh I finally did it ! I went surfin at Sunway Lagoon !!!!!!! Its a crazy day, I felt like a 5 year old kid who was so excited, who got up early to get ready when the parents, (in my case its my Sis) are still in bed. Yes I had to "persuade" my Sister to wake up so we could get there early. I had fun, we rented the tubes, basketball and yes the surf board. I was told to try the body board since I ve never tried the surf board, but No ... body board is too childish ..... Hahahaha .... The waves were not so big, but I was almost drowned for a few times, so much for "not being childish" .I never gave up though. I kept trying and trying till the last waves. I was among two of the girls in the crowd of surfin and the boys too were not the 'pros'. So nobody could really show off :) . (What I really mean is that I didnt look THAT bad when the waves were 'eating' me up). I managed to catch three waves and I was yelling all the way to the crowd at the end of the big pool. No I didnt get to stand on the board, its good enough that I could get the three waves just by holding tight to the board lying down .. hehe
And I tried the basketball too. I still love basketball eventhough I have not played for ages. Played with my sis for some times before she gave up and I ended up playing with the boys (mind you ..... boys as to age 10-15).
Oh what a day, my sister looked good in her new swim suit. So sexy .. and I ... looked like a secondary school girl ......
And I tried the basketball too. I still love basketball eventhough I have not played for ages. Played with my sis for some times before she gave up and I ended up playing with the boys (mind you ..... boys as to age 10-15).
Oh what a day, my sister looked good in her new swim suit. So sexy .. and I ... looked like a secondary school girl ......
Friday, December 26, 2003
I am in Kl and am at my sister's place. Been here since yesterday, running away from the 'hassles'. Not really running, I cant run because the hassles keep following me around, in my thoughts. I feel like I'm loss. Really wish I could talk to myself, to see a different perspective of my own problems .... Friends always come to me for my views and advice, they appreciate me for my ability to listen and give views from angles they had not thought of, and thats why I really feel like talking to "Ann" right now ..................... *sigh*
Thursday, December 25, 2003
tell them that I am near.
I answer their prayers when they call on me;
let them answer my call.
Let them trust in me,
that they may be guided along the path of righteousness.
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Al-Baqara, Surah 2:186
How soothing the words of Allah are at times when you need them most. Its very true when they say :
When you want Allah to talk to you; Read the Quran.
There are times whenever I feel sad and depressed with life and all, I would just open the Quran at random, and there ... inside those verses I would find the soothing words, sometimes describing my feelings, sometimes warning me, and sometimes telling me what life is all about.
I remember there was one time when I was feeling down that my best friend was getting married, afraid that I would be left alone. When I opened the Book, there was this one verse where Allah said "................... everyone of you will come back to me alone....." . I was in tears.
You can have family and friends and everything in life, but when the time come to go back to HIM you will be on your own ......................
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